There’s NO Excuse for Mental Illness

There is no excuse for mental illness Twisted, demented, stigma My whole life I've been mislabeled, fed RX's, drugged and numbed in attempts to fix it. There's no excuse for mental sickness God forbid you can't pick yourself up out of bed when the morning arrives..it's amazing enough you survived the cold of night..alive God …

God’s Love is Perfect for You.

Had a man come into my job just a minute ago and his last words before leaving were, “God’s love is perfect for you”. 😭 Believing that and also loving myself, can be the hardest things for me. It’s nice to have those reminders from those close enough to his heart, speak his heart 🤗❤️

A Soul( or the awareness of being one).

It takes one to know one…

Pain again

Here comes the pain again; the rain again.. The storm within. Tempest amidst, my soul bereft. Just pain, what gain; Comes from all this? I hate what I am; I hate what I ain’t. Black and white; no room for grays.. The weight, oh the weight…. Dark clouds, all the sounds… Driven mad, driven mad… …

Very Well Said: Alan Watts on Religion

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“Christianity, institutionalized guilt, as a virtue.” ~Alan Watts

Pete Davidson on BPD.

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Lady Gaga on Her Mental Health

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Dear God

Help me to shut my mouth; and may I have open eyes and ears to all that you are doing. ~Samantha

A Man is Measured..

Mind Games and God Trips – The Undoing of Me

What is this thing we’ve called God that we’ve idolized for so long; other than our intellect? Observe yourself for some moments, and consider is it true? Not entirely true? But, possibly….. mostly? Where does this God I have come to call mine, reside? When I ponder it? But, almost entirely in my intellect.. Look… …

Compassion and Humanity : We’re All in This Together.

“In cultivating compassion we draw from the wholeness of our experiences-our suffering, our empathy, as well as our cruelty and terror. It has to be this way. Compassion is not a relationship between the healer and the wounded. It’s a relationship between equals. Only when we know our own darkness well can we be present …

Pondering Love

Maybe when someone is in need of something and/or is suffering, and we know it. We shouldn’t always have to ask them first, if they want help.. If we sense it..if instinctively or brazenly we have been alerted… Maybe we shouldn’t always wait for their reply.. But simply, act on it. No questions nor answers …

Anxiety in the Body

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Listening, not Knowing: Brene Brown

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What He Said: Teddy Roosevelt

“It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; . …

BPD and Me

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Good Read BPD

http://www.quora.com/Why-are-people-suffering-from-borderline-personality-the-smartest-and-most-sweetest-people-youll-ever-meet/answer/Kimbriana-Beavers

What He(Thich Nhat Hanh) Said.

“We often think of peace as the absence of war, that if the powerful countries would reduce their weapon arsenals, we could have peace. But if we look deeply into the weapons, we see our own minds- our prejudices, fears, and ignorance. Even if we transport all the bombs to the moon, the roots of …

Tonight: Pains the Same

I don’t know how much longer I can tolerate this shit; The pains a bitch, and everything triggers it. A lifetime of sorrow, tell me how long could you handle it? The hurt is deep; and it’s extremely intense. I’ve sought help, reached out, the best I could; and I’m over it. They said my …

What do we Want for Another?

I’ve come to notice that in most religious circles; It’s not that people wish others to be free. Free of pain, suffering, bondage, etc. It is not that people usually are really seeking another’s healing and peace; But rather, we are wanting and expecting others to think like us. To conform to our patterns and …

“The sacred dimension is not something that you can know through words and ideas any more than you can learn what apple pie tastes like by eating the recipe. The modern age has forgotten that facts and information, for all their usefulness, are not the same as truth or wisdom, and certainly not the same …

Kahlil Gibran on Love

“And think not you can direct the course of love, for love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.”

Temples

If our bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, And the Kingdom of Heaven is within us.; Why is it that we so rarely if not ever, enter in? Go in. Sit with. And Listen. Still yourself. Let go. Release it. Deep breaths, Exhale, Enter in Loves presence.

Seeking

The best way to find out if one is at peace or war, at love or hate, meekness or in arrogance; Is to get still, get quite, in silence.. And look within. As The Kingdom is within, so is hell. One can easily tidy up the outside. But one cannot deny what is within. How …

Mind Games and God Trips

What is this thing we’ve called God that we’ve idolized for so long; other than our intellect? Observe yourself for some moments, and consider is it true? Not entirely true? But, possibly….. mostly? Where does this God I have come to call mine, reside? When I ponder it? But, almost entirely in my intellect.. Look …

Some Depth Before Bed 💤

I used to think that the worst thing in life was to end up all alone. It's not. The worst thing in life is ending up with people who make you feel all alone.-Robin Williams

Fear and Freedom

Don’t let the words and images scare you off🧐🤨😟! Listen to what is being said for once☺️. Not what the mind tells you; or what others have said to believe or think about particular words or images❤️🙏. Essence, spirit/soul, are beyond words and images that have been created by the minds of men, in order …

The Art of Letting Go

https://youtu.be/B-F319b5SuQ

Today

The anxiety is so painful.. Than I remembered the Hennessy.

Buddha Quotes

“A moment of patience in a moment of anger, saves you a hundred moments of regret.” “ Money is the worst discovery of human life. But it is the most trusted material to test human nature.” “One day you’ll be just a memory for some people. Do your best to be a good one.”

One Spirit

“I love you when you bow in your mosque, kneel in your temple, pray in your church. For you and I are sons of one religion, and it is the spirit.” Khalil Gibran, The Prophet

Comprehensive Religion

Religion Comprehension Having to “know” what is right and wrong Allowed and disavowed Needing to expose Needing to be certain Truth claims One is in, another out Religion Asserting this is, and this is not. Tree Of the knowledge of good And evil Stripping one Of spirit Enthroning earthly wisdom Insisting this is it I …

The Pull

“Let yourself be silently drawn by the strange pull of what you really love. It will not lead you astray.” ~Rumi quotes on love and life

Peace Within, Peace Without: Know Thyself First…

“Our capacity to make peace with another person and with the world depends very much on our capacity to make peace with ourselves. If we are at war with our parents, our family, our society, or our church, there is probably a war going on inside us also, so the most basic work for peace …

From Aloneness to Oneness

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Coming to an End of Self..Finally Waking to Realize the Dissatisfaction We’ve Called Living.

“It is not the pursuit of greater and greater states of happiness and bliss that leads to enlightenment(finally seeing things for what they really are), but the yearning for Reality and the rabid dissatisfaction with living anything less than a fully authentic life.” “The worlds problems are, by and large, human problems-the unavoidable consequence of …

Seeking Spirit

“Truth(spiritual experience) is not something that can be truly and deeply understood by having it spoon-fed to you. Such truth is like fast food, easy to access but hardly satisfying in the long run. In our modern society we expect to have everything given to us in easy-to-consume bite-size portions, preferably very quickly so that …

Some Daily Depth

“Unfortunately, the notion of faith that emerged in the West was much more a rational assent to the truth of certain mental beliefs.... Predictably, we soon separated intellectual belief (which tends to differentiate and limit) from love and hope(which unite and thus eternalize).” “No one religion will ever encompass the depth of such faith. No …

A Little Depth a Day: Irks the ego away ..

“I saw too the reverence that everyone must have for a sinner; instead of condoning his sin, which is in reality his utmost sorrow, one must comfort Christ who is suffering in him. And his reverence must be paid even to “those sinners” whose souls seem to be dead, because it is Christ, who is …

Random Rhyming

Sometimes I can be so unthankful; Please God make me more grateful. But can I blame it on the pain though? Cuz the storm rages on, before I explode. They tell me I can’t blame it on the pain though; And I’m tripping, cuz they say it likes it’s easy bro. They forgot sometime ago; …

Frustration

Telling a chronically depressed or anxious person to change their attitude; is like telling a one armed person to grow their other arm back. Or a diabetic to simply stop being insulin resistant... It’s a spit in the face and very disheartening.

My Truths

I don’t want to come across as dark and depressed. Pitiful and disturbed lol. But, I also don’t want to live my life hiding. Promoting a false persona. Polishing up an image I wish the world to attribute to me. I don’t want to fear others opinions. I likewise don't want to advocate for self-harm …

Hindz: Simplicity, Patience, and Compassion

https://youtu.be/LHzAgO-YIfk

Tonight

If I don't die by my own hands; it will be my heart exploding within me from so much stress. Years of stress. It’s a weight. It adds up. It’s friction. It's a lot. So God, strike me dead or help me.

2 Sides 1 Coin

Some say this is not like Jesus. I go about it so unlike He would.. My conflict and resentments; my criticism of many Christians, their buildings, institutions, and conventions. Maybe to you it is so, but I look at it different. Even the best of saints aren't walking perfect in their giftings. Show me one …

Sabbath

It’s ok to need a sabbath. You must, one must, get Sabbath. Tight chest, deep breath, regress. The stress will kill you best. What’s next, what’s next, what’s next? Tight chest, deep breath, regress. The stress, the stress, the stress. Makes one consider bullets to the head. Life’s nagging...will ravage, ravage, ravage. But when will …

Tangents: In My Feelings Again

Tell me what it's like to survive. Picking through a bucket of change for all the nickels and dimes, because there’s no longer a quarter in sight. Single cigarettes are what I'm after, because I'm smoking again. Yes 8 years Newport free, but the stress will make one pick up old habits again... It makes …

Courage

The strongest men, bare their hardest truths. The weakest men hide behind pride; in fear of being true. Ashamed of self, afraid of men seeing them; they dare not tell their longings nor show proof. Lost, wanting to be found; yet not knowing to be free means bringing forth the inner you. Exposing the very …

Ready

God, You can take me when you want. I’ve tried my best. But, I’m not good at life; and I don't like it here. Your stumbling, always grumbling, tired and fatigued red headed step child, Samantha.

Mass Psychosis?

https://youtu.be/4DJVseif8jI

Vision, Seeing, Believing and Receiving.

"Man can only receive what he sees himself receiving. The children of Israel were told that they could have all the land that they could see. This is true of every man. He has only the "land" within his own mental vision. Every great work, every big accomplishment, has been brought into manifestation(reality, come to …

God, The Bible, Cycles and Typologies. *Needs Revision

Lately I've been pondering the cycles found in life. Found in history, in man; as is heaven so on Earth. The micro being a small part of the macro; fractals and holons. The repetitive nature of the seasons and stages of life. Even more so, I've been very interested in how the Bible does such. …

Grace and Humility

I must remember; that everyone has their gifts, just as they have their torments. Everyone has their light, just as also, some darkness. All have their season. In it or out. To change and wrestle. To learn and grow. What I have escaped and lived through, seen and heard; another may have done so long …

Reading The Bible and Other Works.

"Unless you learn how to read symbolically, you don't get the meaning of most Scriptures. Literallism, the way I'm afraid a lot of fundamentalists interpret the Bible, is the lowest level of meaning. The least helpful of meaning. It's all symbolic. But most of us aren't trained to read literature, much less spiritual literature." ~Richard …

Faith and God

"Faith itself sometimes needs to be stripped of its social and historical encrustations and returned to its first, church-less incarnation in the human heart." ~Christian Wiman

How Much Does God Include? Unity: By Father Richard Rohr.

"Most people only appreciate people who are just like them; which means, you're pretty narcissistic. You've never moved beyond the first circle of self.... Now, Bonaventure says once you pass all these tests(loving first the smallest things, the things in your inner circle; than moving outward), than you might see angels. I haven't seen any …

Liberty

God wants people free, more than He wants people to be adherent. And while most have confined themselves still to rigid ideas and systems, refusing to move in Spirit; Jesus is still pointing at those outside the walls of religious fundamentalism. Those moving and speaking as He did. Those bringing peace, freedom, love, and life …

Life Goals?

"Intense suffering burns up the ego in us." "Suffering drives us into surrender, total acceptance, no more complaining." ~Eckhart Tolle (paraphrased). Something all spiritual beliefs, at their core seem to be implying. Different terms are used: self=ego, death of self =ego loss, the first shall be last, burial before resurrection/new life ( new way of …

Morning Dose

"Sometiems we turn our lives over, not to a Power greater than ourselves, but to an unintentional petty dictator. Then we live in a walking dream as their psychic puppet, even when they're no longer around to pull the strings...... You know, at some point you have to free the inner hostage. No one else …

Self-Speculation

I've noticed when I hurt or offend someone, and feel guilty or need to confess it in prayer later; that it seems to be more about my guilt or my need for "redemption" rather than it being about the hurt I've caused. Lord, let this not be so. Change my self-centered heart/mind and fill me …

Drama and Identity

"Most people are in love with their particular life drama. Their story is their identity. The ego runs their life. They have their whole sense of self invested in it. Even their ---usually unsuccessful---search for an answer, a solution, or for healing becomes part of it. What they fear and resist most is the end …

Morning Dose: Catalysts for Change.

"..if you are trapped in a nightmare you will probably be more strongly motivated to awaken than someone who is just caught in the ups and downs of an ordinary dream." ~Eckhart Tolle (The Power of Now).

Tonight’s Dose: Surrender

"It's tempting to try and make a particular job, livelihood, or relationship our salvation.Then we quickly become the slave to whatever we grip the most. But when you make the Divine your Source, you move through life with an ease and lightness, with an open hand. You allow whatever wishes to come, come. And whatever …

Thought for the night..

It's hard to be there for others, when I'm so full of myself...

God Within

My primary resources to God, have been books and other such things: podcasts, sermons, others experiences..you name it. And as much as I've mentioned this before, I believe some things are worth repeating. For years now I've felt compelled to put it all down, and seek God differently. It's funny because you would think we …

Maybe?

There is a time and a place for judgement, is this so? To be reprimanded, corrected? The Church, the professing body of Christ..we can be the first to judge, reprimand and correct. Yet, we can likewise be the last to accept it. And from what I find; we, the people of God, are to be …

Who Is it For?

When you build a life structured upon having all that you think others would want..out of some inner need to feel important, successful, and relevant...you risk missing out on a life YOU actually will find peace and freedom in. You sacrifice even your very families in a sense; for a world that could care less; …

A Relavent Thought

"The disciplines of prayer and Bible study need to be rooted again and again in Jesus himself if they are not to become idolatrous or self serving. We have often muted Jesus' stark challenge, remaking him in our own image and then wondering why our personal spiritualities have become less than exciting and life-changing....... ....I …

It is So

I have to constantly remind myself, that any "imperfection" I so identify in someone else; has either at one time, or currently, resides in me. Sometimes it hides and is disguised. Sometimes it is manifesting in another form, fashion, or degree. That shape shifting demon..always acceptable in me..but not in him or her. Cunning and …

Thoughts on Carnality

We in many ways, have assumed carnality is solely action based. But, how often do we actually live and operate in carnality; or function like the rest of the world, without even knowing it? Be it our thinking? What drives us? What gets us lifted and makes us feel like we are somebody? Carnality can …

Who I Am

I've wresteld with myself for as long as I can remember. Self contempt. Self hate. Confusion of self. Doubting..questioning self. Primarily with my mental health, my emotions. Why? From where does it all come from? . I've been given a plethora of mixed answers: Psychologist tell me it's an illness. Therapist tell me it's from …

In His Presence

Lately, as I try to re-enter my life back on Jesus and God; I find myself reaching out for the same "resources"; rather than the Source. Resources, have been my primary means to God, if they be a means..maybe a help..a tool..but I perhaps made them my gods..my idols. For it was what I sought …

Capitalist and Gift Economy

http://cachomilies.blogspot.com/2019/09/capitalist-economy-and-gift-economy.html?m=1

Time 100 Photographs

I don't know the meaning: but this is where I landed. Thanksgiving Day 1977. I hadn't opened this magazine in months. Today being in a depressed state, I refused to grab from any of my normal readings. All the trust in God and keep on being hopeful ones. So I picked up, Time 100 Photographs: …

Images and Words

Images soothe me more than words these days. Words plague me; Images free me. This image that has been coming to me lately; when I am in fear, distress, turmoil...whatever it be. Is Jesus holding this infant me. And I am asleep in His arms, head pressed against his chest. Right under His right shoulder …

Watch “let’s vibe , I have something to tell you” on YouTube

https://youtu.be/Y2eXYl-Hm0E

https://becomingflame.com/

Watch “Dostoyevsky Discovered: A Biography” on YouTube

https://youtu.be/Zq4vrfS7kUQ

A Different ?

Maybe we should not be asking ourselves or our congregations; how are we changing minds? But rather, how are we changing hearts? Don’t forget; The Hebrews seen the mind and heart as ultimately connected. There are no separate words for them. How have we followed after the same mind games as the world, more than …

Christ

I know You not, in the words of man. I don't comprehend, I can't understand. But, I know You in the tempest, I've met You in the storms. Since a raging youth, you've comforted me. Not in thought, not in mind. But deep within, a wind of peace, comes rushing through. I know You from …

A Prayer

God, Jesus, Whatever needs done in my life, my soul. In my home, my family, my mind. You’re going to have to do it. For I will not pretend. I will not put on a show, an act. I will not pretend I like this. I cannot put on pretense; I cannot smile and laugh …

My Peace

I find my most peace, wrapped in the depths of complete silence; Somewhere within. This for me, is when and where all disturbances end. I think, having rarely any instances of this; has played a major role in my mental and emotional health decline. There is always something poking; prodding. A word, a cry. A …

Patience

“Endeavor to be always patient of the faults and imperfections of others, for you have many faults and imperfections of your own that require a reciprocation of forbearance. If you are not able to make yourself that which you wish to be, how can you expect to mould another in conformity to your will?” ~Thomas …

Sold Souls

We sell our souls to an image. An image we create to present to the world. Of ourselves. We find no rest; as we hustle and bustle and wear ourselves thin. All for this image we worship; to display proudly before men.

Seek

Seek grace, not instruction, desire not understanding. Seek the groaning of prayer over diligent reading, Seek the Spouse more than the teacher, Seek God not man, darkness(faith/ambuguity) not clarity(certitude). Not light(in the mind) but the fire itself(Spirit/presence of God). ~Bonaventure (my own thoughts in parentheses).

I almost Forgot

In my frustrations, hurts, and what some may rightly call resentments towards the professing church of God; I almost lost sight of who my redeemer is. The God of my Youth. The One who met me, came right beside me; in my most destitute moments. Jesus. Though I no longer have the same hard core …

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Another ?

Maybe the question we should ask ourselves and our congregations; is not, in what ways are you a saint? But rather, in what ways are you a suffering servant?

Watch “START FIXING YOUR LIFE IN 2021 (change your life in 2021) – Jordan Peterson Motivation” on YouTube

https://youtu.be/tMPUOm7s7jI

What to do?

"If I tell them, they will consider me a fool; if I am silent, I cannot escape my conscience." ~St. Francis, Before Warning The Christian Crusaders.

It’s Spiritual

It's Spiritual Not mental We've sold our souls to the gods of intellect And we still wonder why we are fraught with mental stress Minds a wreck No soul, no depth Covered with all the lies of intellect. Think Think Comprehend it MadMen, minds in torment Soul death We feel it But are afraid to …

Watch “Only Jesus? The Church and Community.” on YouTube

https://youtu.be/MnXS4u2yLcs

Revelations

I can be consumed with everything; but His presence. No thoughts, no words, no voices heard... Can do what Presence can. We consume; all that peaks our interests. It can keep us deaf, leave us blinded. There is nothing more life giving, more transforming... Than BEING CONSUMED IN HIM. Lost in His Spirit. Made alive, …

DW

I am thankful for you. Though we've never met, though we know not name nor depth; Such continuance has been uplifting, To a soul who's always looked for any resemblance of a constant father from many. Always looking for pieces of what a father should; even if it is a simple glimpse. Fitting those pieces, …

Oh Othello,

"Othello's soul is shattered and his whole outlook clouded simply because his ideal is destroyed.." From The Brothers Karamazov, by Dostoevsky

I Spend a Lot of Time

I spend a lot of time trying to convince others. Convince others of my own lessons. The stories and intricacies; meant for me. Between God and me. Now knowing, things can be shared. But, not until we digest and let them do their perfect work in us first. Our soil must be tilled. Prepared for …

Watch “How God will change the World through the Church – Welcome Home #2” on YouTube

https://youtu.be/SDxG-tddTYM

I’ve Cried to This Several Times in the Last Few Years.

https://youtu.be/py6ZF8hRsHY

The Unchanged/ Non-rebirthed Church

https://youtu.be/MtA_FJ983O8

JP on Trauma

https://youtu.be/ed1KGYC1oXM

Right Now

https://youtu.be/D_7XIKVgRGY

God Lift Us

https://youtu.be/a4AlCk-NDz4

Better than Church 😭❤️

https://youtu.be/OGwk0_BpNG4

Roles in the Narcissistic Family: The Scapegoat Child

If you were a scapegoat child, it may have felt like you were always wrong and to blame for everything in your family. Understand how to heal. — Read on psychcentral.com/health/scapegoat-child

Its Okay to Cut Ties with Toxic Family Members

Would your life be happier, healthier, and more peaceful without certain people in it? Its never easy to cu — Read on psychcentral.com/blog/imperfect/2019/10/its-okay-to-cut-ties-with-toxic-family-members

Emotional Invalidation: A Form of Emotional Abuse – Live Well with Sharon Martin

Emotional invalidation is painful. Sometimes it's unintentional, but it's a sign of emotional abuse when done repeatedly and intentionally. — Read on http://www.livewellwithsharonmartin.com/emotional-invalidation-emotional-abuse/

Don’t Throw Your Pearls Before Swine. (Needs revision)

This could have many connotations. And like the many beautiful things said in Scriptures, this one does too. For me lately, it resonates with trying to be understood. It does not imply my pearls are any greater or of more value than the next mans; or that the ones I try to get to understand …

I just want a chance to cry; get it off my miiind

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Parental Stress

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I’ve Heard it Said

It has been said, that one should not proclaim or identify their own gifting; but rather others will. Why is it that when institutions do define your gifts and say, “this is what we see in you, and this is what we believe you have within...” That, when one starts operating in the very thing …

Crazy Wise (Is in English)❤️🤡🙏👻🥰🙏🙏

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Consequences of Stressed Parenting

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We Forgot

We forgot God is alive and well. “He” is living. So we hide inside and think of Him. We bend and shape and form Him; to control Him. We fear loss of control, silly carnal men. We hide inside away from experience. In life; where He really is. He speaks. And we listen, again and …

State of the Heart

You will find the world ready to mourn with you; And when it’s time to celebrate; you will find out who really wants you happy.

Today

Don’t run yourself ragged; for others. Don’t strive for the things others would. In order to create an appearance the world would applaud. How often we commit to things; for the sake of impressions. How often do we not live for our true self; because we are living to create an image. We toil and …

Disturbances (Reflections after reading a chapter of The Untethered Soul, by Michael Singer).

If any energy is disturbing us; it is disturbing us alone. In the sense that, only our energy matters to us at the moment. We feel it and are effected by it first and for most. We should not try to control or correct what we believe is causing us disturbance; but rather learn to …

This Thought

When we finally believe something. As true. We will no longer need to defend it. Defense, like a self preservation agent, is primal. Fear based. Defending is like implying we must protect it. But what is known to be true; need not be lost. Defended. Or protected. It sits still. It needs not object. It …

Mark of the Beast? :Speculating with Self

The mark of the beast maybe, is not to be seen as some physical thing to come into the horizon. It is not some big trick you have to fear stumbling upon. It’s nothing to be figured out. It’s symbolism. It’s going to be(IS) something, every man can/could choose. Not just one particular generation. Look …

Hello No!?

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Understand

What people don’t seem to understand about suicide, is that it’s not that people want to die. They just don’t want to live.... “ like this.” And I guarantee, most if not all who do, fought a very , very, very good fight before becoming tired of that fight. Just as much as some people …

Tonight

I have to accept the fact, that like many poets and extreme men; most their words are taken for granted and dismissed until they lay… a dead man. Words of wisdom are never comprehended by their family and friends. Until they posthumously are finally given some interest. I’m fine with this.

Looking Back

Looking back, my life has been nothing but chaos and conflict; and I’m looking forward to going.

Violence in the Streets

I am tired of the perpetuating madness that's causing folks sadness Many times caused by little boys, who call themselves men But, lack, the very qualities that have defined generations of manhood.. Work-ethic....don't exist Integrity.....no Role Models.......nope Self made? So they think. Some call it a hard life, but it's easy street; Still whining crying, …

Confessions From The Psych Ward. 🙃

Sometimes I’m afraid to speak such truths. But aren’t they all, products of what is? Reality? Anywho, during my period of PPD(Postpartum Depression) I struggled with suicidal idealization more than I can remember. I had decided to put up a tent. Something we do every year. Just in the backyard. I love to be outdoors …

Makes sense.

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Today

I finally have both kids in school for a period of time each week day! I feel almost wrong about how excited I am!! 😂 I would have a made a mighty fine monk. The quite, the stillness, the limits on noise and distractions are very welcomed. I don’t know what part of me struggles …

What to do if your preschooler won’t stop crying at drop-off

What to do if your preschooler won't stop crying at drop-off — Read on http://www.google.com/amp/s/www.todaysparent.com/kids/what-to-do-if-your-preschooler-wont-stop-crying-at-drop-off/amp/

Today: Listening: Welcome to my head: non-Stop thinking with pen.

Listen to yourself. If you need to rest; rest! Nap! Get better sleep. Listen, get to understand your cues. If you’re anxious; go let that shit out!! And productively! Not with nervous thinking, pacing, mind racing shit. Get out and expend that energy!! Sadhguru suggests this;saying physical exertion is best for this negative energy or …

What America Can Learn From The Mental Health Care Systems Of Other Countries | Talkspace

Many other countries have universal health care, countries far less wealthy than the U.S. — could the U.S. learn something from them? Read more. — Read on http://www.talkspace.com/blog/america-mental-health-care-systems/

Tonight

Is it true? That the more you do live in the moment, Slow motion. Life slows up? A subtle hush... ...... Practice silence to find it. Even within your head. Live free. BE. IN this moment. HERE. ...... Living in our heads, moment by moment. What unpleasant consumption of so many nothings! Distracted for what …

Today

Oh anxiety, You merciless bastard; You antagonizing demon. You relentless hell; You terrorizer, you beast.

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If I take solace in anything; I take it in the fact I’ve fought. I’ve tried. Despite what others may say and think and what I tell myself many times; I know I’ve done my very best to seek help. For the last several years since this has become a terror for me; I have …

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Help me Jesus, I don’t want to die; But I cannot and do not, want to live like this. ~Samantha

Why You Need Time Away From Your Family | by Jennifer Haubrich | Medium

I used to wonder how some women could pack up and leave their husbands and kids. I don’t mean permanently. I’m talking about even for a few days. Why would someone choose to go on vacation or spend… — Read on jen-2163.medium.com/why-you-need-time-away-from-your-family-e0f3c5809342

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Condemn me for living a lie. For living in pretense. For hiding behind...whatever one hides truth behind. But, do not condemn me for my honesty: For saying I needed a break. A bigger and healthier support system. For admitting I’m stressed, overwhelmed, and could use just a few hours a day to myself; in order …

Today

This is why I get tired of advocating for my own mental health lol. Today is the 1st of September. I call for an apt, expressing my need and that I am really depressed. My apt is the 29th..... A month away. Just hang in there, she said. Thanks, good old mental health care.

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Why You Shouldn’t Hope for the Best

“Misfortune weighs most heavily on those who expect nothing but good fortune.” – Seneca Have you ever noticed how we’re taught that our wants and …Why You Shouldn’t Hope for the Best

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10 Signs You Need A Break From Motherhood

When you become a mother, you love your children so much and experience special days. But sometimes, you need a break from your tiring routine. — Read on http://www.moms.com/signs-need-break-from-motherhood/amp/

What We Mean When We Say We Need a Break | HuffPost Life

What We Mean When We Say We Need a Break | HuffPost Life — Read on http://www.google.com/amp/s/www.huffpost.com/entry/stay-at-home-parent_b_2558642/amp

When a Mom Says She Needs a Break – Her View From Home

When a mom says she needs a break what she's really saying is she needs time to set down the mental load of motherhood and reset herself. — Read on herviewfromhome.com/motherhood-needs-a-break/

Single moms can find little relief from chronic stress | Pittsburgh Post-Gazette

Unfortunately, like a NASCAR driver, the single mother faces stress at every turn. — Read on http://www.post-gazette.com/news/health/2013/02/18/Single-moms-can-find-little-relief-from-chronic-stress/stories/201302180231

Single Parent and Depression: My Experience with Depression

Depression is a different story for single parents, who might not have someone to take care of them and their kids while they heal. Here's one mom’s story. — Read on http://www.healthline.com/health/single-parenting-and-depression

High Risk for Anxiety, Depression, and Stress Observed Among Single Mothers – Psychiatry Advisor

This research promotes the use of more rigorous screening efforts for mental illness among single mothers. — Read on http://www.psychiatryadvisor.com/home/topics/mood-disorders/depressive-disorder/high-risk-for-anxiety-depression-and-stress-observed-among-single-mothers/

Why Moms Need So Much Time Alone To Be Happy | Filter Free Parents

“You're isolating again” my husband said, referring to the fact that I'd spent a good part of the night in our room because sometimes I need some time alone — Read on filterfreeparents.com/why-moms-need-so-much-time-alone-to-be-happy/