There’s NO Excuse for Mental Illness

There is no excuse for mental illness Twisted, demented, stigma My whole life I've been mislabeled, fed RX's, drugged and numbed in attempts to fix it. There's no excuse for mental sickness God forbid you can't pick yourself up out of bed when the morning arrives..it's amazing enough you survived the cold of night..alive God …

Stillness asks Me

Stillness asks me, as a reach for my phone, the remote, a book, for anything to fill the stillness. “When will you listen?” Stillness reminds me, that now is the perfect time. In this moment, when nothing is there to distract. Unless I allow it. And stillness whispers, “ will you listen?”

Mind and I

Pain and Being Present

This comes from a book about conscious parenting, but I find most the material is suitable and helpful for anyone. “If we want [our children] to master their emotions, we have to teach them to surrender to what they are experiencing. This isn’t the same as getting sucked into our emotions or reacting. Surrender means …

Introspection

When I look honestly enough, I see the same shit in myself, that I judge and point at others for. They sometimes may be on different spectrums or manifesting differently, these attributes. Yet in essence they are one. At core level, they are the same.

Apologies

I feel guilty for my many words and my many reactions….. And as I sit here wallowing in my own guilt ridden, touchy conscience, I have to ask myself, am I sorry for what I did and the hurt it caused? Or am I sorry because I feel guilty and that’s a painful thing for …

Consciousness: Notes To Self.

What consciousness (conscious awareness) is not: Not being in the present moment, but lost in thoughts of the past or worries of the future. Pondering and analyzing any and everything, that is not needed in that exact moment. Reacting, rather than responding. Being possessed by your emotional triggers; they being what drives you rather than …

Sadhguru Thoughts and Emotions

“Whatever your thought process or emotional process may be, it is just local gossip, very localized to you. Enjoy it if it is nice, but don’t believe it.”

Nature Nurtures

I was mediating outside this evening. And I am getting better with practice, at really having my mind clear of all thoughts. And just being there with only my feelings in the background. And it’s like a wide open space, almost like floating...the sensation within. And expansiveness. So weird. And I’ve been really learning to …

Hindz ~On Energy and Self-Love ❤️ 🧘‍♀️

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Magic Things

Puzzles and Pieces

Why hold fast to one piece of the puzzle; when there is still so much many pieces to sort and put together? Why not put the piece aside? Many times, with puzzles, mysteries~ you find that the pieces you have, don’t fit quite right, or you can’t find their proper place. And you will find, …

Soul and Mind

How often I’ve mistaken my mind for my heart(soul), and vice-versa. How often they’ve told me my mind was the way; but my heart could not be trusted. How often I’ve listened to the deliberations and patterns of my conditioned mined; While silencing my soul when it spoke of love, While tying down my heart …

Reason and Passion: Khalil Gibran (The Prophet)

“And the priestess spoke again and said: Speak to us of Reason and Passion. And he answered, saying: Your soul is oftentimes a battlefield, upon which your reason and your judgment wage war against your passion and your appetite. Would that I could be the peacemaker in your soul, that I might turn the discord …

Finding Beauty in Brokeness – Pointless Overthinking

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Stillness

Lost Faith

I lost my faith in Christianity, when it became clearer, that the majority of professing followers of Christ(myself included) appeared to chase after becoming “saints”, rather than servants. And in order to be the saints they so believed they had to be; they had to be all consumed and sold out, by what it took …

Life

Sometimes, I find hope in the fact that, someday this will all be over. Sometimes, that is all I look forward to. And the hope that, I will never have to come back and “try” this again.

Meditation Is

Thoughts and Emotions

You’ve gave me your thoughts, Now give me your feelings. You’ve held not back your words, questions and attempts to rummage for meanings… So don’t choke out emotions, meant to find freedom. The mind is plagued, by so many somethings. The heart suppressed, unable to breathe, really. Let go, of all those deeply held; felt …

What He Said: Sadhguru on Mental and Emotional Health ❤️

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Truth: BE Present 😉

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Truth and Hypocrisy

http://www.quora.com/What-is-a-screenshot-worth-upvotes-1/answer/Emmanuella-Onyeajam

Meditation and Spurts of Wisdom

You’ll never let Intuition be your guide, as long as you’re letting the collection of your lil-guides, guide you.

Dealing With Difficult People and Relationships

https://youtu.be/1t4-1xOBirQ

What to do?

" If I tell them, they will consider me a fool; if I am silent, I cannot escape my conscience." ~St. Francis, Before Warning The Christian Crusaders.

Moments and Intuitions

You must be in the moment, to discern what that exact moment needs. Tomorrows moment, may not be the moment one imagined today; nor is yesterdays moment here to ever relive.

Gun applicants in NY will have to hand over social accounts | National | wandtv.com

I really think this is an innovative idea! If anything recent gun violence has proven to us; it is that many of these suspects were clearly having mental health issues or even actually making threats before any horrific events occurred. Not only that, in my experience, you can find a lot out about one's personality, …

Todays and Years Longings

More than anything, I just long for time alone. Stillness, silence, solitude. And for several years now, this is the very thing that constantly eludes me. I cry for her. I rage for her. I thirst, I starve, malnourished. Needed to be fed, by nothing. Empty bliss. No distractions or disruptions. No voices, nor noises. …

You Need Me. Sincerely, Solitude.

In solitude, we see more clearly. "We live in an extremely externalized culture," Moore says. "We are constantly pulled outside ourselves—by other people, by the media, by the demands of daily life. Nothing in our culture or in our education teaches us how to go inward, how to steady the mind and calm our attention. …

How to Find Time for Yourself

Finding time for yourself can be as important as it is challenging. Here are some proven strategies for fitting more personal time into your schedule. — Read on http://www.verywellmind.com/how-and-why-to-find-time-for-yourself-3144757

Feelings (Explicit) Random Rhyming/Meant for a beat.

I’m starting to think his so called feelings, not a thing; I’m just another name to an inbox king All talk, no rings All fake, no bling. And you said you was rethinking some things; had me thinking some things, Like love and dreams; But I know it’s not the same; All games. In everything …

What He Said: George Carlin on Education, Reform, and our Society’s Standards.

https://youtu.be/sNXHSMmaq_s

What He Said: Thich Nhat Hanh (Noticing The Synchronicities in Everyday Life 😊).

I find it exciting, hopeful, and as the following excerpts say, like rebirth and renewal, when I come across the same themes very close together within a short amount of time. This has been happening to me for years now, and it can be very encouraging and confirming. Particularly when you are on your own …

Meditation and I

I was just meditating, and was actually as some have testified to, finding brief moments of solely awareness, that are as close to any inner liberation I’ve ever experienced. The Throne Room. At God’s “right hand”. Before Him; where one can lay their burdens. For the weight of burdens in that solace, that wide open …

Instinct and Intellect

Excerpt taken from, The Tao of Pooh; by Benjamin Hoff. Reflecting on a riddle called Cottleston Pie; Pooh and the narrator dig deeper into the riddle: “Why does a chicken do what it does? You don’t know? Neither do we. Neither does anyone else. Science likes to strut around and Act Smart by putting labels …

What He Said: Alan Watts

“To have faith is to trust yourself to the water. When you swim you don’t grab hold of the water, because if you do you will sink and drown. Instead you relax, and float.”

Worshipers and Followers.

A point I have been trying to get across for several years now to serious church goers; is their relation to church, over people. A key verse I can’t get away from when considering this, is when Jesus tells the parable of The Good Samaritan. Notice, the kindness of the Samaritan gets pointed out by …

Wild Wild West

Note: I talk in extremes to make points. I don’t necessarily think the church should be perfect or is filled with all hypocrites. I don’t think one must debase themselves and live in poverty and grief to be a follower of Christ. My objective is to show how churches do tend to overly focus and …

Spirituality, Knowledge, and Experience

There is little use, and much futilely, in gaining mental knowledge and the possession of concepts; without practice. All knowledge, the teaching and learning of spiritual things are solely to lead one to the experience of said spiritual things. It is the presence of, that counts; that ultimately frees and liberates ones soul. The presence …

Mercy and Grace

To have other humans(asking people and not just God) you’ve offended or hurt, accept your apology and offer forgiveness and understanding; can be one of the most liberating things to experience.

Do You Build Your Life Around Your Authentic Self or our Cultures Expectations and Ideals?

For me, I don't want to live by the "rules" and expectations of a society steeped in greed, materialism, consumerism, and so forth. I want my spirit to lead me. I have to realize what I do for others, VS what I do for myself. And when it comes to a lot of things most …

Words Of Wisdom

What He Said: Alan Watts on The Tao Te Ching.

https://youtu.be/1AwyLHCnbmI

What He Said: Ekhart Tolle

“The deepening (spiritual healing, freedom, awakening, liberation, self-discovery) happens through the challenges of life. If you could remove the challenges of life, it’s virtually impossible to remove the challenges of life; but if you could remove for a period of time the challenges of life, by living in a totally protected environment, the lack of …

What He Said: Jay Shetty

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Jesus, Buddha and You.

“When Jesus said, “ I am the way,” He meant that to have a true relationship with God, you must practice His way. In the Acts of the Apostles, the early Christians always spoke of their faith as “the Way.” To me, “I am the way” is a better statement than “I know the way.” …

Society and Emotions: Save the Youth?

I seen the heading of an article today that read something of childhood suicide on the rise and what we could do? It is our society. Are we willing to change? We have unconsciously or maybe sadly even consciously; pushed our children off into the realm of our own power tripping and ideals of success. …

Lessons from Taoism: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Times

It was at a university book sale where I was first introduced to the ideas of Taoism. Hidden away deep in the philosophy section, I picked up what …Lessons from Taoism: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Times

Morning Meditation: Substitutions

We’ve come to this place, where we’ve mistaken feeding our minds, for feeding our souls. The mind is of our physical nature; our spirit is not so. We have lost touch with this eternal part of ourselves. We give it no opportunity to grow. We still not ourselves; but rush to inquire. We hush not …

Let…

Minimizing Suffering

“We can quickly conjure up a hell realm of negativity in our minds that multiples the stress of the actual event, by ten times or even more. Part of the art of suffering well is learning not to magnify our pain by getting carried away in fear, anger, and despair. We build and maintain our …

Therapy and Crime Rates

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Laughter is Medicine

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Therapy and Stigma

http://www.quora.com/Why-do-therapists-have-to-be-careful-how-they-approach-borderlines/answer/David-McPhee-1

Mental Patient

One moment I’m up, one moment I’m down; It’s crazy ain’t it? I’m a mf mental patient. For my life long, I’ve been singing this sad song; and I’m always complaining of it. It’s chronic. Somebody save me. I hate it. It controls me, it pursues me, until it consumes me. Eats me alive, one …

The Thousand-Yard Stare. Taking a frightening look at combat… | by Kent Stolt | History of Yesterday

Soldiers call it the thousand-yard stare — the tell-tale sign that one’s senses have become so overloaded by prolonged fear and trauma that the nervous system can’t process any more. They are no… — Read on historyofyesterday.com/the-thousand-yard-stare-b8eae90ec634

One Said N’ Done

I’m tired Of trying Of fighting Of getting back up, Thinking I’ve gotten it together; Only to plummet back under; So I will lay; Again I will lay here and wait for my heart to fail me from the tole of it all.. I sense it coming; I can’t hold any more. Not at all.

God’s Love is Perfect for You.

Had a man come into my job just a minute ago and his last words before leaving were, “God’s love is perfect for you”. 😭 Believing that and also loving myself, can be the hardest things for me. It’s nice to have those reminders from those close enough to his heart, speak his heart 🤗❤️

A Soul( or the awareness of being one).

It takes one to know one…

Pain again

Here comes the pain again; the rain again.. The storm within. Tempest amidst, my soul bereft. Just pain, what gain; Comes from all this? I hate what I am; I hate what I ain’t. Black and white; no room for grays.. The weight, oh the weight…. Dark clouds, all the sounds… Driven mad, driven mad… …

Very Well Said: Alan Watts on Religion

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“Christianity, institutionalized guilt, as a virtue.” ~Alan Watts

Pete Davidson on BPD.

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Lady Gaga on Her Mental Health

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Dear God

Help me to shut my mouth; and may I have open eyes and ears to all that you are doing. ~Samantha

A Man is Measured..

Mind Games and God Trips – The Undoing of Me

What is this thing we’ve called God that we’ve idolized for so long; other than our intellect? Observe yourself for some moments, and consider is it true? Not entirely true? But, possibly….. mostly? Where does this God I have come to call mine, reside? When I ponder it? But, almost entirely in my intellect.. Look… …

Compassion and Humanity : We’re All in This Together.

“In cultivating compassion we draw from the wholeness of our experiences-our suffering, our empathy, as well as our cruelty and terror. It has to be this way. Compassion is not a relationship between the healer and the wounded. It’s a relationship between equals. Only when we know our own darkness well can we be present …

Pondering Love

Maybe when someone is in need of something and/or is suffering, and we know it. We shouldn’t always have to ask them first, if they want help.. If we sense it..if instinctively or brazenly we have been alerted… Maybe we shouldn’t always wait for their reply.. But simply, act on it. No questions nor answers …

Anxiety in the Body

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Listening, not Knowing: Brene Brown

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What He Said: Teddy Roosevelt

“It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; . …

BPD and Me

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Good Read BPD

http://www.quora.com/Why-are-people-suffering-from-borderline-personality-the-smartest-and-most-sweetest-people-youll-ever-meet/answer/Kimbriana-Beavers

What He(Thich Nhat Hanh) Said.

“We often think of peace as the absence of war, that if the powerful countries would reduce their weapon arsenals, we could have peace. But if we look deeply into the weapons, we see our own minds- our prejudices, fears, and ignorance. Even if we transport all the bombs to the moon, the roots of …

Tonight: Pains the Same

I don’t know how much longer I can tolerate this shit; The pains a bitch, and everything triggers it. A lifetime of sorrow, tell me how long could you handle it? The hurt is deep; and it’s extremely intense. I’ve sought help, reached out, the best I could; and I’m over it. They said my …

What do we Want for Another?

I’ve come to notice that in most religious circles; It’s not that people wish others to be free. Free of pain, suffering, bondage, etc. It is not that people usually are really seeking another’s healing and peace; But rather, we are wanting and expecting others to think like us. To conform to our patterns and …

The Way of Liberation

“The sacred dimension is not something that you can know through words and ideas any more than you can learn what apple pie tastes like by eating the recipe. The modern age has forgotten that facts and information, for all their usefulness, are not the same as truth or wisdom, and certainly not the same …

Kahlil Gibran on Love

“And think not you can direct the course of love, for love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.”

Temples

If our bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, And the Kingdom of Heaven is within us.; Why is it that we so rarely if not ever, enter in? Go in. Sit with. And Listen. Still yourself. Let go. Release it. Deep breaths, Exhale, Enter in Loves presence.

Seeking

The best way to find out if one is at peace or war, at love or hate, meekness or in arrogance; Is to get still, get quite, in silence.. And look within. As The Kingdom is within, so is hell. One can easily tidy up the outside. But one cannot deny what is within. How …

Mind Games and God Trips

What is this thing we’ve called God that we’ve idolized for so long; other than our intellect? Observe yourself for some moments, and consider is it true? Not entirely true? But, possibly….. mostly? Where does this God I have come to call mine, reside? When I ponder it? But, almost entirely in my intellect.. Look …

Some Depth Before Bed 💤

I used to think that the worst thing in life was to end up all alone. It's not. The worst thing in life is ending up with people who make you feel all alone.-Robin Williams

Fear and Freedom

Don’t let the words and images scare you off🧐🤨😟! Listen to what is being said for once☺️. Not what the mind tells you; or what others have said to believe or think about particular words or images❤️🙏. Essence, spirit/soul, are beyond words and images that have been created by the minds of men, in order …

Pablo and Jane

Let me pour out the liquor and mourn a few, rest in peace to our time; Rear view. You were it I had chosen you . Let me let go and exhale, Fast away this love spell. No thinking of you and me; Godspeed. It is the best elixir, ignoring all of my feelings, get …

The Art of Letting Go

https://youtu.be/B-F319b5SuQ

Today

The anxiety is so painful.. Than I remembered the Hennessy.

Buddha Quotes

“A moment of patience in a moment of anger, saves you a hundred moments of regret.” “ Money is the worst discovery of human life. But it is the most trusted material to test human nature.” “One day you’ll be just a memory for some people. Do your best to be a good one.”

One Spirit

“I love you when you bow in your mosque, kneel in your temple, pray in your church. For you and I are sons of one religion, and it is the spirit.” Khalil Gibran, The Prophet

Comprehensive Religion

Religion Comprehension Having to “know” what is right and wrong Allowed and disavowed Needing to expose Needing to be certain Truth claims One is in, another out Religion Asserting this is, and this is not. Tree Of the knowledge of good And evil Stripping one Of spirit Enthroning earthly wisdom Insisting this is it I …

The Pull

“Let yourself be silently drawn by the strange pull of what you really love. It will not lead you astray.” ~Rumi quotes on love and life

Peace Within, Peace Without: Know Thyself First…

“Our capacity to make peace with another person and with the world depends very much on our capacity to make peace with ourselves. If we are at war with our parents, our family, our society, or our church, there is probably a war going on inside us also, so the most basic work for peace …

From Aloneness to Oneness

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Coming to an End of Self..Finally Waking to Realize the Dissatisfaction We’ve Called Living.

“It is not the pursuit of greater and greater states of happiness and bliss that leads to enlightenment(finally seeing things for what they really are), but the yearning for Reality and the rabid dissatisfaction with living anything less than a fully authentic life.” “The worlds problems are, by and large, human problems-the unavoidable consequence of …

Seeking Spirit

“Truth(spiritual experience) is not something that can be truly and deeply understood by having it spoon-fed to you. Such truth is like fast food, easy to access but hardly satisfying in the long run. In our modern society we expect to have everything given to us in easy-to-consume bite-size portions, preferably very quickly so that …

Some Daily Depth

“Unfortunately, the notion of faith that emerged in the West was much more a rational assent to the truth of certain mental beliefs.... Predictably, we soon separated intellectual belief (which tends to differentiate and limit) from love and hope(which unite and thus eternalize).” “No one religion will ever encompass the depth of such faith. No …

A Little Depth a Day: Irks the ego away ..

“I saw too the reverence that everyone must have for a sinner; instead of condoning his sin, which is in reality his utmost sorrow, one must comfort Christ who is suffering in him. And his reverence must be paid even to “those sinners” whose souls seem to be dead, because it is Christ, who is …

Random Rhyming

Sometimes I can be so unthankful; Please God make me more grateful. But can I blame it on the pain though? Cuz the storm rages on, before I explode. They tell me I can’t blame it on the pain though; And I’m tripping, cuz they say it likes it’s easy bro. They forgot sometime ago; …

Frustration

Telling a chronically depressed or anxious person to change their attitude; is like telling a one armed person to grow their other arm back. Or a diabetic to simply stop being insulin resistant... It’s a spit in the face and very disheartening.

My Truths

I don’t want to come across as dark and depressed. Pitiful and disturbed lol. But, I also don’t want to live my life hiding. Promoting a false persona. Polishing up an image I wish the world to attribute to me. I don’t want to fear others opinions. I likewise don't want to advocate for self-harm …

Hindz: Simplicity, Patience, and Compassion

https://youtu.be/LHzAgO-YIfk

Tonight

If I don't die by my own hands; it will be my heart exploding within me from so much stress. Years of stress. It’s a weight. It adds up. It’s friction. It's a lot. So God, strike me dead or help me.

2 Sides 1 Coin

Some say this is not like Jesus. I go about it so unlike He would.. My conflict and resentments; my criticism of many Christians, their buildings, institutions, and conventions. Maybe to you it is so, but I look at it different. Even the best of saints aren't walking perfect in their giftings. Show me one …

Sabbath

It’s ok to need a sabbath. You must, one must, get Sabbath. Tight chest, deep breath, regress. The stress will kill you best. What’s next, what’s next, what’s next? Tight chest, deep breath, regress. The stress, the stress, the stress. Makes one consider bullets to the head. Life’s nagging...will ravage, ravage, ravage. But when will …

Tangents: In My Feelings Again

Tell me what it's like to survive. Picking through a bucket of change for all the nickels and dimes, because there’s no longer a quarter in sight. Single cigarettes are what I'm after, because I'm smoking again. Yes 8 years Newport free, but the stress will make one pick up old habits again... It makes …

Courage

The strongest men, bare their hardest truths. The weakest men hide behind pride; in fear of being true. Ashamed of self, afraid of men seeing them; they dare not tell their longings nor show proof. Lost, wanting to be found; yet not knowing to be free means bringing forth the inner you. Exposing the very …

Ready

God, You can take me when you want. I’ve tried my best. But, I’m not good at life; and I don't like it here. Your stumbling, always grumbling, tired and fatigued red headed step child, Samantha.

Mass Psychosis?

https://youtu.be/4DJVseif8jI

Vision, Seeing, Believing and Receiving.

"Man can only receive what he sees himself receiving. The children of Israel were told that they could have all the land that they could see. This is true of every man. He has only the "land" within his own mental vision. Every great work, every big accomplishment, has been brought into manifestation(reality, come to …

God, The Bible, Cycles and Typologies. *Needs Revision

Lately I've been pondering the cycles found in life. Found in history, in man; as is heaven so on Earth. The micro being a small part of the macro; fractals and holons. The repetitive nature of the seasons and stages of life. Even more so, I've been very interested in how the Bible does such. …

Grace and Humility

I must remember; that everyone has their gifts, just as they have their torments. Everyone has their light, just as also, some darkness. All have their season. In it or out. To change and wrestle. To learn and grow. What I have escaped and lived through, seen and heard; another may have done so long …

Reading The Bible and Other Works.

"Unless you learn how to read symbolically, you don't get the meaning of most Scriptures. Literallism, the way I'm afraid a lot of fundamentalists interpret the Bible, is the lowest level of meaning. The least helpful of meaning. It's all symbolic. But most of us aren't trained to read literature, much less spiritual literature." ~Richard …

Faith and God

"Faith itself sometimes needs to be stripped of its social and historical encrustations and returned to its first, church-less incarnation in the human heart." ~Christian Wiman

How Much Does God Include? Unity: By Father Richard Rohr.

"Most people only appreciate people who are just like them; which means, you're pretty narcissistic. You've never moved beyond the first circle of self.... Now, Bonaventure says once you pass all these tests(loving first the smallest things, the things in your inner circle; than moving outward), than you might see angels. I haven't seen any …

Liberty

God wants people free, more than He wants people to be adherent. And while most have confined themselves still to rigid ideas and systems, refusing to move in Spirit; Jesus is still pointing at those outside the walls of religious fundamentalism. Those moving and speaking as He did. Those bringing peace, freedom, love, and life …

Life Goals?

"Intense suffering burns up the ego in us." "Suffering drives us into surrender, total acceptance, no more complaining." ~Eckhart Tolle (paraphrased). Something all spiritual beliefs, at their core seem to be implying. Different terms are used: self=ego, death of self =ego loss, the first shall be last, burial before resurrection/new life ( new way of …

Morning Dose

"Sometiems we turn our lives over, not to a Power greater than ourselves, but to an unintentional petty dictator. Then we live in a walking dream as their psychic puppet, even when they're no longer around to pull the strings...... You know, at some point you have to free the inner hostage. No one else …

Self-Speculation

I've noticed when I hurt or offend someone, and feel guilty or need to confess it in prayer later; that it seems to be more about my guilt or my need for "redemption" rather than it being about the hurt I've caused. Lord, let this not be so. Change my self-centered heart/mind and fill me …

Drama and Identity

"Most people are in love with their particular life drama. Their story is their identity. The ego runs their life. They have their whole sense of self invested in it. Even their ---usually unsuccessful---search for an answer, a solution, or for healing becomes part of it. What they fear and resist most is the end …

Morning Dose: Catalysts for Change.

"..if you are trapped in a nightmare you will probably be more strongly motivated to awaken than someone who is just caught in the ups and downs of an ordinary dream." ~Eckhart Tolle (The Power of Now).

Tonight’s Dose: Surrender

"It's tempting to try and make a particular job, livelihood, or relationship our salvation.Then we quickly become the slave to whatever we grip the most. But when you make the Divine your Source, you move through life with an ease and lightness, with an open hand. You allow whatever wishes to come, come. And whatever …

Thought for the night..

It's hard to be there for others, when I'm so full of myself...

God Within

My primary resources to God, have been books and other such things: podcasts, sermons, others experiences..you name it. And as much as I've mentioned this before, I believe some things are worth repeating. For years now I've felt compelled to put it all down, and seek God differently. It's funny because you would think we …

Maybe?

There is a time and a place for judgement, is this so? To be reprimanded, corrected? The Church, the professing body of Christ..we can be the first to judge, reprimand and correct. Yet, we can likewise be the last to accept it. And from what I find; we, the people of God, are to be …

Who Is it For?

When you build a life structured upon having all that you think others would want..out of some inner need to feel important, successful, and relevant...you risk missing out on a life YOU actually will find peace and freedom in. You sacrifice even your very families in a sense; for a world that could care less; …

A Relavent Thought

"The disciplines of prayer and Bible study need to be rooted again and again in Jesus himself if they are not to become idolatrous or self serving. We have often muted Jesus' stark challenge, remaking him in our own image and then wondering why our personal spiritualities have become less than exciting and life-changing....... ....I …

It is So

I have to constantly remind myself, that any "imperfection" I so identify in someone else; has either at one time, or currently, resides in me. Sometimes it hides and is disguised. Sometimes it is manifesting in another form, fashion, or degree. That shape shifting demon..always acceptable in me..but not in him or her. Cunning and …

Thoughts on Carnality

We in many ways, have assumed carnality is solely action based. But, how often do we actually live and operate in carnality; or function like the rest of the world, without even knowing it? Be it our thinking? What drives us? What gets us lifted and makes us feel like we are somebody? Carnality can …

Who I Am

I've wresteld with myself for as long as I can remember. Self contempt. Self hate. Confusion of self. Doubting..questioning self. Primarily with my mental health, my emotions. Why? From where does it all come from? . I've been given a plethora of mixed answers: Psychologist tell me it's an illness. Therapist tell me it's from …

In His Presence

Lately, as I try to re-enter my life back on Jesus and God; I find myself reaching out for the same "resources"; rather than the Source. Resources, have been my primary means to God, if they be a means..maybe a help..a tool..but I perhaps made them my gods..my idols. For it was what I sought …

Capitalist and Gift Economy

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Time 100 Photographs

I don't know the meaning: but this is where I landed. Thanksgiving Day 1977. I hadn't opened this magazine in months. Today being in a depressed state, I refused to grab from any of my normal readings. All the trust in God and keep on being hopeful ones. So I picked up, Time 100 Photographs: …

Images and Words

Images soothe me more than words these days. Words plague me; Images free me. This image that has been coming to me lately; when I am in fear, distress, turmoil...whatever it be. Is Jesus holding this infant me. And I am asleep in His arms, head pressed against his chest. Right under His right shoulder …

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A Different ?

Maybe we should not be asking ourselves or our congregations; how are we changing minds? But rather, how are we changing hearts? Don’t forget; The Hebrews seen the mind and heart as ultimately connected. There are no separate words for them. How have we followed after the same mind games as the world, more than …

Christ

I know You not, in the words of man. I don't comprehend, I can't understand. But, I know You in the tempest, I've met You in the storms. Since a raging youth, you've comforted me. Not in thought, not in mind. But deep within, a wind of peace, comes rushing through. I know You from …

A Prayer

God, Jesus, Whatever needs done in my life, my soul. In my home, my family, my mind. You’re going to have to do it. For I will not pretend. I will not put on a show, an act. I will not pretend I like this. I cannot put on pretense; I cannot smile and laugh …

My Peace

I find my most peace, wrapped in the depths of complete silence; Somewhere within. This for me, is when and where all disturbances end. I think, having rarely any instances of this; has played a major role in my mental and emotional health decline. There is always something poking; prodding. A word, a cry. A …

Patience

“Endeavor to be always patient of the faults and imperfections of others, for you have many faults and imperfections of your own that require a reciprocation of forbearance. If you are not able to make yourself that which you wish to be, how can you expect to mould another in conformity to your will?” ~Thomas …

Sold Souls

We sell our souls to an image. An image we create to present to the world. Of ourselves. We find no rest; as we hustle and bustle and wear ourselves thin. All for this image we worship; to display proudly before men.

Seek

Seek grace, not instruction, desire not understanding. Seek the groaning of prayer over diligent reading, Seek the Spouse more than the teacher, Seek God not man, darkness(faith/ambuguity) not clarity(certitude). Not light(in the mind) but the fire itself(Spirit/presence of God). ~Bonaventure (my own thoughts in parentheses).

I almost Forgot

In my frustrations, hurts, and what some may rightly call resentments towards the professing church of God; I almost lost sight of who my redeemer is. The God of my Youth. The One who met me, came right beside me; in my most destitute moments. Jesus. Though I no longer have the same hard core …

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Another ?

Maybe the question we should ask ourselves and our congregations; is not, in what ways are you a saint? But rather, in what ways are you a suffering servant?

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What to do?

"If I tell them, they will consider me a fool; if I am silent, I cannot escape my conscience." ~St. Francis, Before Warning The Christian Crusaders.

It’s Spiritual

It's Spiritual Not mental We've sold our souls to the gods of intellect And we still wonder why we are fraught with mental stress Minds a wreck No soul, no depth Covered with all the lies of intellect. Think Think Comprehend it MadMen, minds in torment Soul death We feel it But are afraid to …