There is no excuse for mental illness Twisted, demented, stigma My whole life I've been mislabeled, fed RX's, drugged and numbed in attempts to fix it. There's no excuse for mental sickness God forbid you can't pick yourself up out of bed when the morning arrives..it's amazing enough you survived the cold of night..alive God … Continue reading There’s NO Excuse for Mental Illness
Stillness asks me, as a reach for my phone, the remote, a book, for anything to fill the stillness. “When will you listen?” Stillness reminds me, that now is the perfect time. In this moment, when nothing is there to distract. Unless I allow it. And stillness whispers, “ will you listen?”
This comes from a book about conscious parenting, but I find most the material is suitable and helpful for anyone. “If we want [our children] to master their emotions, we have to teach them to surrender to what they are experiencing. This isn’t the same as getting sucked into our emotions or reacting. Surrender means … Continue reading Pain and Being Present
When I look honestly enough, I see the same shit in myself, that I judge and point at others for. They sometimes may be on different spectrums or manifesting differently, these attributes. Yet in essence they are one. At core level, they are the same.
I feel guilty for my many words and my many reactions….. And as I sit here wallowing in my own guilt ridden, touchy conscience, I have to ask myself, am I sorry for what I did and the hurt it caused? Or am I sorry because I feel guilty and that’s a painful thing for … Continue reading Apologies
What consciousness (conscious awareness) is not: Not being in the present moment, but lost in thoughts of the past or worries of the future. Pondering and analyzing any and everything, that is not needed in that exact moment. Reacting, rather than responding. Being possessed by your emotional triggers; they being what drives you rather than … Continue reading Consciousness: Notes To Self.
“Whatever your thought process or emotional process may be, it is just local gossip, very localized to you. Enjoy it if it is nice, but don’t believe it.”
I was mediating outside this evening. And I am getting better with practice, at really having my mind clear of all thoughts. And just being there with only my feelings in the background. And it’s like a wide open space, almost like floating...the sensation within. And expansiveness. So weird. And I’ve been really learning to … Continue reading Nature Nurtures
Why hold fast to one piece of the puzzle; when there is still so much many pieces to sort and put together? Why not put the piece aside? Many times, with puzzles, mysteries~ you find that the pieces you have, don’t fit quite right, or you can’t find their proper place. And you will find, … Continue reading Puzzles and Pieces
How often I’ve mistaken my mind for my heart(soul), and vice-versa. How often they’ve told me my mind was the way; but my heart could not be trusted. How often I’ve listened to the deliberations and patterns of my conditioned mined; While silencing my soul when it spoke of love, While tying down my heart … Continue reading Soul and Mind
“And the priestess spoke again and said: Speak to us of Reason and Passion. And he answered, saying: Your soul is oftentimes a battlefield, upon which your reason and your judgment wage war against your passion and your appetite. Would that I could be the peacemaker in your soul, that I might turn the discord … Continue reading Reason and Passion: Khalil Gibran (The Prophet)
Finding Beauty in Brokeness - Pointless Overthinking — Read on pointlessoverthinking.com/2022/07/30/finding-beauty-in-brokeness/
I lost my faith in Christianity, when it became clearer, that the majority of professing followers of Christ(myself included) appeared to chase after becoming “saints”, rather than servants. And in order to be the saints they so believed they had to be; they had to be all consumed and sold out, by what it took … Continue reading Lost Faith
Sometimes, I find hope in the fact that, someday this will all be over. Sometimes, that is all I look forward to. And the hope that, I will never have to come back and “try” this again.
You’ve gave me your thoughts, Now give me your feelings. You’ve held not back your words, questions and attempts to rummage for meanings… So don’t choke out emotions, meant to find freedom. The mind is plagued, by so many somethings. The heart suppressed, unable to breathe, really. Let go, of all those deeply held; felt … Continue reading Thoughts and Emotions
You’ll never let Intuition be your guide, as long as you’re letting the collection of your lil-guides, guide you.
" If I tell them, they will consider me a fool; if I am silent, I cannot escape my conscience." ~St. Francis, Before Warning The Christian Crusaders.
You must be in the moment, to discern what that exact moment needs. Tomorrows moment, may not be the moment one imagined today; nor is yesterdays moment here to ever relive.
I really think this is an innovative idea! If anything recent gun violence has proven to us; it is that many of these suspects were clearly having mental health issues or even actually making threats before any horrific events occurred. Not only that, in my experience, you can find a lot out about one's personality, … Continue reading Gun applicants in NY will have to hand over social accounts | National | wandtv.com
More than anything, I just long for time alone. Stillness, silence, solitude. And for several years now, this is the very thing that constantly eludes me. I cry for her. I rage for her. I thirst, I starve, malnourished. Needed to be fed, by nothing. Empty bliss. No distractions or disruptions. No voices, nor noises. … Continue reading Todays and Years Longings
In solitude, we see more clearly. "We live in an extremely externalized culture," Moore says. "We are constantly pulled outside ourselves—by other people, by the media, by the demands of daily life. Nothing in our culture or in our education teaches us how to go inward, how to steady the mind and calm our attention. … Continue reading You Need Me. Sincerely, Solitude.
Finding time for yourself can be as important as it is challenging. Here are some proven strategies for fitting more personal time into your schedule. — Read on http://www.verywellmind.com/how-and-why-to-find-time-for-yourself-3144757
I’m starting to think his so called feelings, not a thing; I’m just another name to an inbox king All talk, no rings All fake, no bling. And you said you was rethinking some things; had me thinking some things, Like love and dreams; But I know it’s not the same; All games. In everything … Continue reading Feelings (Explicit) Random Rhyming/Meant for a beat.
I find it exciting, hopeful, and as the following excerpts say, like rebirth and renewal, when I come across the same themes very close together within a short amount of time. This has been happening to me for years now, and it can be very encouraging and confirming. Particularly when you are on your own … Continue reading What He Said: Thich Nhat Hanh (Noticing The Synchronicities in Everyday Life 😊).
I was just meditating, and was actually as some have testified to, finding brief moments of solely awareness, that are as close to any inner liberation I’ve ever experienced. The Throne Room. At God’s “right hand”. Before Him; where one can lay their burdens. For the weight of burdens in that solace, that wide open … Continue reading Meditation and I
Excerpt taken from, The Tao of Pooh; by Benjamin Hoff. Reflecting on a riddle called Cottleston Pie; Pooh and the narrator dig deeper into the riddle: “Why does a chicken do what it does? You don’t know? Neither do we. Neither does anyone else. Science likes to strut around and Act Smart by putting labels … Continue reading Instinct and Intellect
“To have faith is to trust yourself to the water. When you swim you don’t grab hold of the water, because if you do you will sink and drown. Instead you relax, and float.”
A point I have been trying to get across for several years now to serious church goers; is their relation to church, over people. A key verse I can’t get away from when considering this, is when Jesus tells the parable of The Good Samaritan. Notice, the kindness of the Samaritan gets pointed out by … Continue reading Worshipers and Followers.
Note: I talk in extremes to make points. I don’t necessarily think the church should be perfect or is filled with all hypocrites. I don’t think one must debase themselves and live in poverty and grief to be a follower of Christ. My objective is to show how churches do tend to overly focus and … Continue reading Wild Wild West
There is little use, and much futilely, in gaining mental knowledge and the possession of concepts; without practice. All knowledge, the teaching and learning of spiritual things are solely to lead one to the experience of said spiritual things. It is the presence of, that counts; that ultimately frees and liberates ones soul. The presence … Continue reading Spirituality, Knowledge, and Experience
To have other humans(asking people and not just God) you’ve offended or hurt, accept your apology and offer forgiveness and understanding; can be one of the most liberating things to experience.
For me, I don't want to live by the "rules" and expectations of a society steeped in greed, materialism, consumerism, and so forth. I want my spirit to lead me. I have to realize what I do for others, VS what I do for myself. And when it comes to a lot of things most … Continue reading Do You Build Your Life Around Your Authentic Self or our Cultures Expectations and Ideals?
“The deepening (spiritual healing, freedom, awakening, liberation, self-discovery) happens through the challenges of life. If you could remove the challenges of life, it’s virtually impossible to remove the challenges of life; but if you could remove for a period of time the challenges of life, by living in a totally protected environment, the lack of … Continue reading What He Said: Ekhart Tolle
“When Jesus said, “ I am the way,” He meant that to have a true relationship with God, you must practice His way. In the Acts of the Apostles, the early Christians always spoke of their faith as “the Way.” To me, “I am the way” is a better statement than “I know the way.” … Continue reading Jesus, Buddha and You.
I seen the heading of an article today that read something of childhood suicide on the rise and what we could do? It is our society. Are we willing to change? We have unconsciously or maybe sadly even consciously; pushed our children off into the realm of our own power tripping and ideals of success. … Continue reading Society and Emotions: Save the Youth?
It was at a university book sale where I was first introduced to the ideas of Taoism. Hidden away deep in the philosophy section, I picked up what …Lessons from Taoism: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Times
We’ve come to this place, where we’ve mistaken feeding our minds, for feeding our souls. The mind is of our physical nature; our spirit is not so. We have lost touch with this eternal part of ourselves. We give it no opportunity to grow. We still not ourselves; but rush to inquire. We hush not … Continue reading Morning Meditation: Substitutions
“We can quickly conjure up a hell realm of negativity in our minds that multiples the stress of the actual event, by ten times or even more. Part of the art of suffering well is learning not to magnify our pain by getting carried away in fear, anger, and despair. We build and maintain our … Continue reading Minimizing Suffering
One moment I’m up, one moment I’m down; It’s crazy ain’t it? I’m a mf mental patient. For my life long, I’ve been singing this sad song; and I’m always complaining of it. It’s chronic. Somebody save me. I hate it. It controls me, it pursues me, until it consumes me. Eats me alive, one … Continue reading Mental Patient
Soldiers call it the thousand-yard stare — the tell-tale sign that one’s senses have become so overloaded by prolonged fear and trauma that the nervous system can’t process any more. They are no… — Read on historyofyesterday.com/the-thousand-yard-stare-b8eae90ec634
I’m tired Of trying Of fighting Of getting back up, Thinking I’ve gotten it together; Only to plummet back under; So I will lay; Again I will lay here and wait for my heart to fail me from the tole of it all.. I sense it coming; I can’t hold any more. Not at all.
Had a man come into my job just a minute ago and his last words before leaving were, “God’s love is perfect for you”. 😭 Believing that and also loving myself, can be the hardest things for me. It’s nice to have those reminders from those close enough to his heart, speak his heart 🤗❤️
It takes one to know one…
Here comes the pain again; the rain again.. The storm within. Tempest amidst, my soul bereft. Just pain, what gain; Comes from all this? I hate what I am; I hate what I ain’t. Black and white; no room for grays.. The weight, oh the weight…. Dark clouds, all the sounds… Driven mad, driven mad… … Continue reading Pain again
“Christianity, institutionalized guilt, as a virtue.” ~Alan Watts
Help me to shut my mouth; and may I have open eyes and ears to all that you are doing. ~Samantha
What is this thing we’ve called God that we’ve idolized for so long; other than our intellect? Observe yourself for some moments, and consider is it true? Not entirely true? But, possibly….. mostly? Where does this God I have come to call mine, reside? When I ponder it? But, almost entirely in my intellect.. Look… … Continue reading Mind Games and God Trips – The Undoing of Me
“In cultivating compassion we draw from the wholeness of our experiences-our suffering, our empathy, as well as our cruelty and terror. It has to be this way. Compassion is not a relationship between the healer and the wounded. It’s a relationship between equals. Only when we know our own darkness well can we be present … Continue reading Compassion and Humanity : We’re All in This Together.
Maybe when someone is in need of something and/or is suffering, and we know it. We shouldn’t always have to ask them first, if they want help.. If we sense it..if instinctively or brazenly we have been alerted… Maybe we shouldn’t always wait for their reply.. But simply, act on it. No questions nor answers … Continue reading Pondering Love
“It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; . … Continue reading What He Said: Teddy Roosevelt
“We often think of peace as the absence of war, that if the powerful countries would reduce their weapon arsenals, we could have peace. But if we look deeply into the weapons, we see our own minds- our prejudices, fears, and ignorance. Even if we transport all the bombs to the moon, the roots of … Continue reading What He(Thich Nhat Hanh) Said.
I don’t know how much longer I can tolerate this shit; The pains a bitch, and everything triggers it. A lifetime of sorrow, tell me how long could you handle it? The hurt is deep; and it’s extremely intense. I’ve sought help, reached out, the best I could; and I’m over it. They said my … Continue reading Tonight: Pains the Same
I’ve come to notice that in most religious circles; It’s not that people wish others to be free. Free of pain, suffering, bondage, etc. It is not that people usually are really seeking another’s healing and peace; But rather, we are wanting and expecting others to think like us. To conform to our patterns and … Continue reading What do we Want for Another?
“The sacred dimension is not something that you can know through words and ideas any more than you can learn what apple pie tastes like by eating the recipe. The modern age has forgotten that facts and information, for all their usefulness, are not the same as truth or wisdom, and certainly not the same … Continue reading The Way of Liberation
“And think not you can direct the course of love, for love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.”
If our bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, And the Kingdom of Heaven is within us.; Why is it that we so rarely if not ever, enter in? Go in. Sit with. And Listen. Still yourself. Let go. Release it. Deep breaths, Exhale, Enter in Loves presence.
The best way to find out if one is at peace or war, at love or hate, meekness or in arrogance; Is to get still, get quite, in silence.. And look within. As The Kingdom is within, so is hell. One can easily tidy up the outside. But one cannot deny what is within. How … Continue reading Seeking
What is this thing we’ve called God that we’ve idolized for so long; other than our intellect? Observe yourself for some moments, and consider is it true? Not entirely true? But, possibly….. mostly? Where does this God I have come to call mine, reside? When I ponder it? But, almost entirely in my intellect.. Look … Continue reading Mind Games and God Trips
I used to think that the worst thing in life was to end up all alone. It's not. The worst thing in life is ending up with people who make you feel all alone.-Robin Williams
Don’t let the words and images scare you off🧐🤨😟! Listen to what is being said for once☺️. Not what the mind tells you; or what others have said to believe or think about particular words or images❤️🙏. Essence, spirit/soul, are beyond words and images that have been created by the minds of men, in order … Continue reading Fear and Freedom
Let me pour out the liquor and mourn a few, rest in peace to our time; Rear view. You were it I had chosen you . Let me let go and exhale, Fast away this love spell. No thinking of you and me; Godspeed. It is the best elixir, ignoring all of my feelings, get … Continue reading Pablo and Jane
The anxiety is so painful.. Than I remembered the Hennessy.
“A moment of patience in a moment of anger, saves you a hundred moments of regret.” “ Money is the worst discovery of human life. But it is the most trusted material to test human nature.” “One day you’ll be just a memory for some people. Do your best to be a good one.”
“I love you when you bow in your mosque, kneel in your temple, pray in your church. For you and I are sons of one religion, and it is the spirit.” Khalil Gibran, The Prophet
Religion Comprehension Having to “know” what is right and wrong Allowed and disavowed Needing to expose Needing to be certain Truth claims One is in, another out Religion Asserting this is, and this is not. Tree Of the knowledge of good And evil Stripping one Of spirit Enthroning earthly wisdom Insisting this is it I … Continue reading Comprehensive Religion
“Let yourself be silently drawn by the strange pull of what you really love. It will not lead you astray.” ~Rumi quotes on love and life
“Our capacity to make peace with another person and with the world depends very much on our capacity to make peace with ourselves. If we are at war with our parents, our family, our society, or our church, there is probably a war going on inside us also, so the most basic work for peace … Continue reading Peace Within, Peace Without: Know Thyself First…
“It is not the pursuit of greater and greater states of happiness and bliss that leads to enlightenment(finally seeing things for what they really are), but the yearning for Reality and the rabid dissatisfaction with living anything less than a fully authentic life.” “The worlds problems are, by and large, human problems-the unavoidable consequence of … Continue reading Coming to an End of Self..Finally Waking to Realize the Dissatisfaction We’ve Called Living.
“Truth(spiritual experience) is not something that can be truly and deeply understood by having it spoon-fed to you. Such truth is like fast food, easy to access but hardly satisfying in the long run. In our modern society we expect to have everything given to us in easy-to-consume bite-size portions, preferably very quickly so that … Continue reading Seeking Spirit
“Unfortunately, the notion of faith that emerged in the West was much more a rational assent to the truth of certain mental beliefs.... Predictably, we soon separated intellectual belief (which tends to differentiate and limit) from love and hope(which unite and thus eternalize).” “No one religion will ever encompass the depth of such faith. No … Continue reading Some Daily Depth
“I saw too the reverence that everyone must have for a sinner; instead of condoning his sin, which is in reality his utmost sorrow, one must comfort Christ who is suffering in him. And his reverence must be paid even to “those sinners” whose souls seem to be dead, because it is Christ, who is … Continue reading A Little Depth a Day: Irks the ego away ..
Sometimes I can be so unthankful; Please God make me more grateful. But can I blame it on the pain though? Cuz the storm rages on, before I explode. They tell me I can’t blame it on the pain though; And I’m tripping, cuz they say it likes it’s easy bro. They forgot sometime ago; … Continue reading Random Rhyming
Telling a chronically depressed or anxious person to change their attitude; is like telling a one armed person to grow their other arm back. Or a diabetic to simply stop being insulin resistant... It’s a spit in the face and very disheartening.
I don’t want to come across as dark and depressed. Pitiful and disturbed lol. But, I also don’t want to live my life hiding. Promoting a false persona. Polishing up an image I wish the world to attribute to me. I don’t want to fear others opinions. I likewise don't want to advocate for self-harm … Continue reading My Truths
If I don't die by my own hands; it will be my heart exploding within me from so much stress. Years of stress. It’s a weight. It adds up. It’s friction. It's a lot. So God, strike me dead or help me.
Some say this is not like Jesus. I go about it so unlike He would.. My conflict and resentments; my criticism of many Christians, their buildings, institutions, and conventions. Maybe to you it is so, but I look at it different. Even the best of saints aren't walking perfect in their giftings. Show me one … Continue reading 2 Sides 1 Coin
It’s ok to need a sabbath. You must, one must, get Sabbath. Tight chest, deep breath, regress. The stress will kill you best. What’s next, what’s next, what’s next? Tight chest, deep breath, regress. The stress, the stress, the stress. Makes one consider bullets to the head. Life’s nagging...will ravage, ravage, ravage. But when will … Continue reading Sabbath
Tell me what it's like to survive. Picking through a bucket of change for all the nickels and dimes, because there’s no longer a quarter in sight. Single cigarettes are what I'm after, because I'm smoking again. Yes 8 years Newport free, but the stress will make one pick up old habits again... It makes … Continue reading Tangents: In My Feelings Again
The strongest men, bare their hardest truths. The weakest men hide behind pride; in fear of being true. Ashamed of self, afraid of men seeing them; they dare not tell their longings nor show proof. Lost, wanting to be found; yet not knowing to be free means bringing forth the inner you. Exposing the very … Continue reading Courage
God, You can take me when you want. I’ve tried my best. But, I’m not good at life; and I don't like it here. Your stumbling, always grumbling, tired and fatigued red headed step child, Samantha.
"Man can only receive what he sees himself receiving. The children of Israel were told that they could have all the land that they could see. This is true of every man. He has only the "land" within his own mental vision. Every great work, every big accomplishment, has been brought into manifestation(reality, come to … Continue reading Vision, Seeing, Believing and Receiving.
Lately I've been pondering the cycles found in life. Found in history, in man; as is heaven so on Earth. The micro being a small part of the macro; fractals and holons. The repetitive nature of the seasons and stages of life. Even more so, I've been very interested in how the Bible does such. … Continue reading God, The Bible, Cycles and Typologies. *Needs Revision
I must remember; that everyone has their gifts, just as they have their torments. Everyone has their light, just as also, some darkness. All have their season. In it or out. To change and wrestle. To learn and grow. What I have escaped and lived through, seen and heard; another may have done so long … Continue reading Grace and Humility
"Unless you learn how to read symbolically, you don't get the meaning of most Scriptures. Literallism, the way I'm afraid a lot of fundamentalists interpret the Bible, is the lowest level of meaning. The least helpful of meaning. It's all symbolic. But most of us aren't trained to read literature, much less spiritual literature." ~Richard … Continue reading Reading The Bible and Other Works.
"Faith itself sometimes needs to be stripped of its social and historical encrustations and returned to its first, church-less incarnation in the human heart." ~Christian Wiman
"Most people only appreciate people who are just like them; which means, you're pretty narcissistic. You've never moved beyond the first circle of self.... Now, Bonaventure says once you pass all these tests(loving first the smallest things, the things in your inner circle; than moving outward), than you might see angels. I haven't seen any … Continue reading How Much Does God Include? Unity: By Father Richard Rohr.
God wants people free, more than He wants people to be adherent. And while most have confined themselves still to rigid ideas and systems, refusing to move in Spirit; Jesus is still pointing at those outside the walls of religious fundamentalism. Those moving and speaking as He did. Those bringing peace, freedom, love, and life … Continue reading Liberty
"Intense suffering burns up the ego in us." "Suffering drives us into surrender, total acceptance, no more complaining." ~Eckhart Tolle (paraphrased). Something all spiritual beliefs, at their core seem to be implying. Different terms are used: self=ego, death of self =ego loss, the first shall be last, burial before resurrection/new life ( new way of … Continue reading Life Goals?
"Sometiems we turn our lives over, not to a Power greater than ourselves, but to an unintentional petty dictator. Then we live in a walking dream as their psychic puppet, even when they're no longer around to pull the strings...... You know, at some point you have to free the inner hostage. No one else … Continue reading Morning Dose
I've noticed when I hurt or offend someone, and feel guilty or need to confess it in prayer later; that it seems to be more about my guilt or my need for "redemption" rather than it being about the hurt I've caused. Lord, let this not be so. Change my self-centered heart/mind and fill me … Continue reading Self-Speculation
"Most people are in love with their particular life drama. Their story is their identity. The ego runs their life. They have their whole sense of self invested in it. Even their ---usually unsuccessful---search for an answer, a solution, or for healing becomes part of it. What they fear and resist most is the end … Continue reading Drama and Identity
"..if you are trapped in a nightmare you will probably be more strongly motivated to awaken than someone who is just caught in the ups and downs of an ordinary dream." ~Eckhart Tolle (The Power of Now).
"It's tempting to try and make a particular job, livelihood, or relationship our salvation.Then we quickly become the slave to whatever we grip the most. But when you make the Divine your Source, you move through life with an ease and lightness, with an open hand. You allow whatever wishes to come, come. And whatever … Continue reading Tonight’s Dose: Surrender
It's hard to be there for others, when I'm so full of myself...
My primary resources to God, have been books and other such things: podcasts, sermons, others experiences..you name it. And as much as I've mentioned this before, I believe some things are worth repeating. For years now I've felt compelled to put it all down, and seek God differently. It's funny because you would think we … Continue reading God Within
There is a time and a place for judgement, is this so? To be reprimanded, corrected? The Church, the professing body of Christ..we can be the first to judge, reprimand and correct. Yet, we can likewise be the last to accept it. And from what I find; we, the people of God, are to be … Continue reading Maybe?
When you build a life structured upon having all that you think others would want..out of some inner need to feel important, successful, and relevant...you risk missing out on a life YOU actually will find peace and freedom in. You sacrifice even your very families in a sense; for a world that could care less; … Continue reading Who Is it For?
"The disciplines of prayer and Bible study need to be rooted again and again in Jesus himself if they are not to become idolatrous or self serving. We have often muted Jesus' stark challenge, remaking him in our own image and then wondering why our personal spiritualities have become less than exciting and life-changing....... ....I … Continue reading A Relavent Thought
I have to constantly remind myself, that any "imperfection" I so identify in someone else; has either at one time, or currently, resides in me. Sometimes it hides and is disguised. Sometimes it is manifesting in another form, fashion, or degree. That shape shifting demon..always acceptable in me..but not in him or her. Cunning and … Continue reading It is So
We in many ways, have assumed carnality is solely action based. But, how often do we actually live and operate in carnality; or function like the rest of the world, without even knowing it? Be it our thinking? What drives us? What gets us lifted and makes us feel like we are somebody? Carnality can … Continue reading Thoughts on Carnality
I've wresteld with myself for as long as I can remember. Self contempt. Self hate. Confusion of self. Doubting..questioning self. Primarily with my mental health, my emotions. Why? From where does it all come from? . I've been given a plethora of mixed answers: Psychologist tell me it's an illness. Therapist tell me it's from … Continue reading Who I Am
Lately, as I try to re-enter my life back on Jesus and God; I find myself reaching out for the same "resources"; rather than the Source. Resources, have been my primary means to God, if they be a means..maybe a help..a tool..but I perhaps made them my gods..my idols. For it was what I sought … Continue reading In His Presence
I don't know the meaning: but this is where I landed. Thanksgiving Day 1977. I hadn't opened this magazine in months. Today being in a depressed state, I refused to grab from any of my normal readings. All the trust in God and keep on being hopeful ones. So I picked up, Time 100 Photographs: … Continue reading Time 100 Photographs
Images soothe me more than words these days. Words plague me; Images free me. This image that has been coming to me lately; when I am in fear, distress, turmoil...whatever it be. Is Jesus holding this infant me. And I am asleep in His arms, head pressed against his chest. Right under His right shoulder … Continue reading Images and Words
Maybe we should not be asking ourselves or our congregations; how are we changing minds? But rather, how are we changing hearts? Don’t forget; The Hebrews seen the mind and heart as ultimately connected. There are no separate words for them. How have we followed after the same mind games as the world, more than … Continue reading A Different ?
I know You not, in the words of man. I don't comprehend, I can't understand. But, I know You in the tempest, I've met You in the storms. Since a raging youth, you've comforted me. Not in thought, not in mind. But deep within, a wind of peace, comes rushing through. I know You from … Continue reading Christ
God, Jesus, Whatever needs done in my life, my soul. In my home, my family, my mind. You’re going to have to do it. For I will not pretend. I will not put on a show, an act. I will not pretend I like this. I cannot put on pretense; I cannot smile and laugh … Continue reading A Prayer
I find my most peace, wrapped in the depths of complete silence; Somewhere within. This for me, is when and where all disturbances end. I think, having rarely any instances of this; has played a major role in my mental and emotional health decline. There is always something poking; prodding. A word, a cry. A … Continue reading My Peace
“Endeavor to be always patient of the faults and imperfections of others, for you have many faults and imperfections of your own that require a reciprocation of forbearance. If you are not able to make yourself that which you wish to be, how can you expect to mould another in conformity to your will?” ~Thomas … Continue reading Patience
We sell our souls to an image. An image we create to present to the world. Of ourselves. We find no rest; as we hustle and bustle and wear ourselves thin. All for this image we worship; to display proudly before men.
Seek grace, not instruction, desire not understanding. Seek the groaning of prayer over diligent reading, Seek the Spouse more than the teacher, Seek God not man, darkness(faith/ambuguity) not clarity(certitude). Not light(in the mind) but the fire itself(Spirit/presence of God). ~Bonaventure (my own thoughts in parentheses).
In my frustrations, hurts, and what some may rightly call resentments towards the professing church of God; I almost lost sight of who my redeemer is. The God of my Youth. The One who met me, came right beside me; in my most destitute moments. Jesus. Though I no longer have the same hard core … Continue reading I almost Forgot
Maybe the question we should ask ourselves and our congregations; is not, in what ways are you a saint? But rather, in what ways are you a suffering servant?
"If I tell them, they will consider me a fool; if I am silent, I cannot escape my conscience." ~St. Francis, Before Warning The Christian Crusaders.
It's Spiritual Not mental We've sold our souls to the gods of intellect And we still wonder why we are fraught with mental stress Minds a wreck No soul, no depth Covered with all the lies of intellect. Think Think Comprehend it MadMen, minds in torment Soul death We feel it But are afraid to … Continue reading It’s Spiritual