Note: I think a lot of what I write are projections. It has taken me a long time to understand this. But, I am trying to figure out how all that works. So with that said, keep in mind that much of this stuff is what I should be preaching to myself alone, I just … Continue reading Ah Shit
There’s NO Excuse for Mental Illness
There is no excuse for mental illness Twisted, demented, stigma My whole life I've been mislabeled, fed RX's, drugged and numbed in attempts to fix it. There's no excuse for mental sickness God forbid you can't pick yourself up out of bed when the morning arrives..it's amazing enough you survived the cold of night..alive God … Continue reading There’s NO Excuse for Mental Illness
I’m to Blame
I’ve struggled with horrible depression and mental health issues since adolescence. And my entire life those feelings, emotions, and what they brought to the surface has always been unacceptable. Even as a kid, any threats of suicide, angry outbursts and mental torment was met with: Just go kill yourself then. You just want attention. Or … Continue reading I’m to Blame
Looking Back
Looking back, my life has been nothing but chaos and conflict; and I’m looking forward to going.
Jesus? White Evangelicals. Poverty and Privilege Mentality
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Who are the Orphan and Widow?
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My YouTube Channel
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Violence in the Streets
I am tired of the perpetuating madness that's causing folks sadness Many times caused by little boys, who call themselves men But lack the very qualities that have defined generations of manhood Work-ethic....don't exist Integrity.....no Role Models.......nope Self made, so they think Some call it a hard life, but it's easy street Still whining crying, … Continue reading Violence in the Streets
Makes sense.
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Today
I finally have both kids in school for a period of time each week day! I feel almost wrong about how excited I am!! 😂 I would have a made a mighty fine monk. The quite, the stillness, the limits on noise and distractions are very welcomed. I don’t know what part of me struggles … Continue reading Today
What to do if your preschooler won’t stop crying at drop-off
What to do if your preschooler won't stop crying at drop-off — Read on http://www.google.com/amp/s/www.todaysparent.com/kids/what-to-do-if-your-preschooler-wont-stop-crying-at-drop-off/amp/
Today: Listening: Welcome to my head: non-Stop lol thinking with pen.
Listen to yourself. If you need to rest; rest! Nap! Get better sleep. Listen, get to understand your cues. If you’re anxious; go let that shit out!! And productively! Not with nervous thinking, pacing, mind racing shit. Get out and expend that energy!! Sadhguru suggests this;saying physical exertion is best for this negative energy or … Continue reading Today: Listening: Welcome to my head: non-Stop lol thinking with pen.
What America Can Learn From The Mental Health Care Systems Of Other Countries | Talkspace
Many other countries have universal health care, countries far less wealthy than the U.S. — could the U.S. learn something from them? Read more. — Read on http://www.talkspace.com/blog/america-mental-health-care-systems/
Tonight
Is it true? That the more you do live in the moment, Slow motion. Life slows up? A subtle hush... ...... Practice silence to find it. Even within your head. Live free. BE. IN this moment. HERE. ...... Living in our heads, moment by moment. What unpleasant consumption of so many nothings! Distracted for what … Continue reading Tonight
Today
Oh anxiety, You merciless bastard; You antagonizing demon. You relentless hell; You terrorizer, you beast.
Today 2
If I take solace in anything; I take it in the fact I’ve fought. I’ve tried. Despite what others may say and think and what I tell myself many times; I know I’ve done my very best to seek help. For the last several years since this has become a terror for me; I have … Continue reading Today 2
Today
Help me Jesus, I don’t want to die; But I cannot and do not, want to live like this. ~Samantha
Why You Need Time Away From Your Family | by Jennifer Haubrich | Medium
I used to wonder how some women could pack up and leave their husbands and kids. I don’t mean permanently. I’m talking about even for a few days. Why would someone choose to go on vacation or spend… — Read on jen-2163.medium.com/why-you-need-time-away-from-your-family-e0f3c5809342
Next Read?
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What’s Up
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Today
Condemn me for living a lie. For living in pretense. For hiding behind...whatever one hides truth behind. But, do not condemn me for my honesty: For saying I needed a break. A bigger and healthier support system. For admitting I’m stressed, overwhelmed, and could use just a few hours a day to myself; in order … Continue reading Today
Today
This is why I get tired of advocating for my own mental health lol. Today is the 1st of September. I call for an apt, expressing my need and that I am really depressed. My apt is the 29th..... A month away. Just hang in there, she said. Thanks, good old mental health care.
Maybe
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Why You Shouldn’t Hope for the Best
“Misfortune weighs most heavily on those who expect nothing but good fortune.” – Seneca Have you ever noticed how we’re taught that our wants and …Why You Shouldn’t Hope for the Best
Single Mother
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10 Signs You Need A Break From Motherhood
When you become a mother, you love your children so much and experience special days. But sometimes, you need a break from your tiring routine. — Read on http://www.moms.com/signs-need-break-from-motherhood/amp/
What We Mean When We Say We Need a Break | HuffPost Life
What We Mean When We Say We Need a Break | HuffPost Life — Read on http://www.google.com/amp/s/www.huffpost.com/entry/stay-at-home-parent_b_2558642/amp
When a Mom Says She Needs a Break – Her View From Home
When a mom says she needs a break what she's really saying is she needs time to set down the mental load of motherhood and reset herself. — Read on herviewfromhome.com/motherhood-needs-a-break/
Single moms can find little relief from chronic stress | Pittsburgh Post-Gazette
Unfortunately, like a NASCAR driver, the single mother faces stress at every turn. — Read on http://www.post-gazette.com/news/health/2013/02/18/Single-moms-can-find-little-relief-from-chronic-stress/stories/201302180231
Single Parent and Depression: My Experience with Depression
Depression is a different story for single parents, who might not have someone to take care of them and their kids while they heal. Here's one mom’s story. — Read on http://www.healthline.com/health/single-parenting-and-depression
High Risk for Anxiety, Depression, and Stress Observed Among Single Mothers – Psychiatry Advisor
This research promotes the use of more rigorous screening efforts for mental illness among single mothers. — Read on http://www.psychiatryadvisor.com/home/topics/mood-disorders/depressive-disorder/high-risk-for-anxiety-depression-and-stress-observed-among-single-mothers/
Why Moms Need So Much Time Alone To Be Happy | Filter Free Parents
“You're isolating again” my husband said, referring to the fact that I'd spent a good part of the night in our room because sometimes I need some time alone — Read on filterfreeparents.com/why-moms-need-so-much-time-alone-to-be-happy/
Hello
I would say unlike what one would call normal: life for the most part good, with intermittent sorrows; mine has been the reverse. And this is not to exaggerate. It is just my truth. And I am at this moment, feeling the need to accept that. To accept my pain. And my sorrow. I think … Continue reading Hello
Childhood Trauma.
Lately
I feel like not loving lately. I don't want to force myself to be kind any longer. I want to not care anymore, honestly. To be my old, asshole self; because it comes more naturally. But eventually, it becomes painful to be like that. I'm tired of being nice. Fighting the side of me that … Continue reading Lately
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I love him
Maybe for not all of the best reasons; Yet I love him. For all he is. For the calm, The connection, The presence, His reflections.. On life. Himself. Myself. Who knows, It's perfect in it's rebelliousness. It's alive and well.
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Tonight (Needs revision)
I find it is much easier for me to scrutinize another's errors, flaws, and character defects; when they are ones that I have already overcome,or have under better control. And the things that are MY own errors, flaws, and character defects; I am much easier at justifing and explaining away. Well, ugly is common to … Continue reading Tonight (Needs revision)
God Is Love Period
I've found peoples near death experiences, much more compelling and beautiful; than the things people have only been able to pass down through tell. I can't put more confidence in written pen; than I can real lives who have experienced the same transformational bliss, over, and over, and over again. Light and Love they say. … Continue reading God Is Love Period
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Tell Me
Where did you get this disposition? This calm, gentleness, loving soothingness? Is it natural? From where did you learn this? Did a loved one hold you tight as a kid? When all your worries and fears would come and enter in? Did someone keep you from all the things that could frighten you? Shelter you … Continue reading Tell Me
I Hate Myself Today
I hate myself again today. As much as I promise myself, God, whoever; that I'll be kinder, more loving..gentle. I find myself being that same gossip that I condem in one bitch; and the same self-occupied, egocentric person that I resent in that friend. I find myself still critical of people and am having a … Continue reading I Hate Myself Today
This theme keeps coming and from totally different sources: Theme of unity and interdependence. 3rd time today in 3 diff sources. Last post was one as well.
' "Paradise", he went on, 'lies hidden within all of us- here it lies hidden in me now, and if I desire it, it will become a reality for me tomorrow and remain with me the rest of my life."..... .....' " And that each of us is responsible for all men and all things, apart … Continue reading This theme keeps coming and from totally different sources: Theme of unity and interdependence. 3rd time today in 3 diff sources. Last post was one as well.
The Power of Interdependence : An excerpt.
“The Christian tradition is filled with references, stories, and metaphors that speak to [this dynamic] interdependence. Paul’s metaphor comparing the community of church to the human body captures the essence of our interdependence. When Paul wrote his letter to the church at Corinth, he understood that its members ministered within a bustling city much like … Continue reading The Power of Interdependence : An excerpt.
Hmmmmm
It might not always be that someone can't get over something; But that, maybe they are still amazed no one else can see it. The message may be so valid to them; that they have made it a mission. 🤷♀️
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Why Alone Time Is Crucial for Introverted Moms (and How to Stop Guilt)
For The Mom Who Is Sick And Tired Of ‘Mom-Guilt’ – Simple Slow & Lovely
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I lay here. And I ask Him; I try to, Give up the ghost.. But He will not receive me...
This Morning
I was out back having an emotional pity party. Apologizing to God for all my bad qualities that seem to never give me rest. The things that persist in me; the things I at times am inclined to fall back into. And here I go crying, and decide to open up one of the many … Continue reading This Morning
Thinking
Even good things can be weapons. Think about the reasons you post/say/do things beforehand and notice your intentions: Is it a subliminal or not so subliminal message? And even though the message is good in essence or even vaild; notice, do I have it aimed at an individual? Then see, that you yourself are playing … Continue reading Thinking
Rhyming
I hate myself sometimes, I am my biggest rival. I pick apart every conscious thought and it's mind-boggling, But yet I keep writing, I can't keep from rymhing. It's one beat that I can keep. Rhythm and blues is my soul beneath. I sing aloud -aloud..real loud again these days; I sat down and I … Continue reading Rhyming
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What if God asked you to take the back seat? 🤔 What would that mean in your case?
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At a Loss for Words
We try and tackle words to the disadvantage of everyone. Oh, Babel, Babel. For instance, if I were praying now, and felt God press upon me, "come find me." And I so happened to post that or tell someone. I most likely would come across some that are so invested in word play, they no … Continue reading At a Loss for Words
Today
I'm depressed today; nothing major, maybe PMSing.. But I've been crying alot.. self-pity and self-resentment are running the show today. I've been blaming myself, guilt-trips and than the victim persona hits; and I don't know what it is. But I think it's all related and relevant when we get to the gist of it. But … Continue reading Today
The Future
What we need to teach our kids, is mf emotional regulation. We need to quit hyperfocusing on physical ability and head knowledge; and give them ways to handle the pain, the ache, and the quake. We have given them all these tools to succeed materially; and yet for another man usually. You know the cycle. … Continue reading The Future
Private and Public
I recently had made my blog private because I have felt unworthy of my own opinions. (But said fuck it) Disclaimer* I am not a preacher or teacher or perfect servant of Jesus or God. Nor do I claim to be. I am just being honest when I'm blogging whether it's right or wrong; they … Continue reading Private and Public
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Who is Doing the Seeing?
"When we see things in an intuitive way, in conscious union with the eyes of God, what we see is qualitatively different. Basically, it is no longer self-referential but very expansive seeing, and this changes everything.... Many see a supposedly good "new thing" but still in an old way, which is to say, with their … Continue reading Who is Doing the Seeing?
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Duty
"There is nothing as unbearable as someone doing something for you because they believe it is their duty. The sanctimony of it can make it intolerable. If you are too dutiful, you will die of its burden and people around you will die of bordom! If you have love for something, you do it; if … Continue reading Duty
Thinking Again
It troubles me that the church, or professing body of Christ, can “discern” correct doctrine; yet are so unable to discern the human condition. The need of another. The lost. Or the cost at that. I find Jesus above all else, so in-tune with people, He changes them so. He is able to perceive what … Continue reading Thinking Again
The Shit
I’ve found that the less I allow myself to consume; be it wants or cravings, things that numb me, things that guide me, the things that I can give my attention to.. The more I am at ease. And, the more I allow myself to have that is unnecessary, comes along with even more things … Continue reading The Shit
Yes
Good Read : Gaslighting
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Random Rhyme Time
A clean conscience makes a great heaven. You are what you eat, that shit can go in all directions. We reap and we sow, karma collectors..persons influenced by every suggestion. We are all our biggest projections, shit instilled..past subconscious recollections. Puzzle pieces of our each personal histories..tragedies and beautiful things... Shaped by all that's made … Continue reading Random Rhyme Time
Brethren
We wrestle with all the complexities found in mysteries, and avoid the clearest messages found in scroll. Why is this so?
Nature
I'm often so very full of myself; and likewise I despise my own self more than any other man/woman I know.
Brilliant
Signs and wonders
Why aren't we seeing more of Thee? Could it be that men prefer certainties over mysteries? Where are the sons having visions and daughters seeing dreams? Where is the, thou shall do more than me? Stuck in the building still searching for explanations, again discussing impossible equations..to the detriment of human beings. You’ll find them … Continue reading Signs and wonders
Today
We are much more comfortable distinguishing and performing the lesser evils, than we are the greater goods.
I’m
I'm an angry bitch, that's the most of it. Gotta watch my mouth, I like to complain and shit. It's been a long ass trip, Painfulness. Life that is. I can't explain it. My existence is half manic, but mostly sadness. It eats away at me, it ravages. I get up, only to fall again. … Continue reading I’m
People
People like to look at ones life and judge it. Point out all the failures. Yet they don't know how many obstacles others have had to fight through, to simply make it through. They don't consider what could have been; if one just allowed themselves to succumb to all the past traumas and situations that … Continue reading People
Wonderful!
"...Francis's starting place was human suffering instead of human sinfulness, and God's identification with that suffering in Jesus. That did not put Him in conflict with any (Catholic) dogmas or strictures. His Christ was cosmic while deeply personal, his cathedral was creation itself, he preferred the bottom of society to the top. He invariably emphasized … Continue reading Wonderful!
What’s IN a word?
What is IN a word? That's what matters. Not how you understand or relate to a word. But rather,, what a person is trying to get across and convey with the word(s) they have chosen. Words are man made. Content is not. Don't confuse the word for the content and vice versa.
Thinking Again
I often ponder and struggle with why people sort of take for granted the plethora of verses and admonitions found in The Bible concerning treating others right, giving to the poor, denying self, going out to the margins; And give so much more weight to the few (in contrast with the lessons of love and … Continue reading Thinking Again
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I Write
I told myself I should start writing more positive or praise worthy things. To let everyone know I am a happy person too haha. I caught myself though; wanting to do it for approval. Something I have done my whole life: tried to conform for approval. No one's fault; but my own faulty thinking for … Continue reading I Write
Stop the Mission Trips
Stop making vacations out of missions trips. Make interpersonal relationships, with those not like you, or those in need of other people...your mission. Just a thought.
My attitudes on Church
I don't have anything against people or individuals in general when it comes to my critique and attitude towards church stuff. My intentions are to point at an attitude or mentality, that can be found within the church's "mind" or life in general. Things that are so taken for granted, that they are not questioned. … Continue reading My attitudes on Church
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Today
This is hard for me: Life. Trying to figure this all out, on my own. Juggling it. House, home, kids, discipline, instruction, yard work, homework, housework, car work, all work. I can’t keep up. My mind drives me nuts. Never shuts up. My attempts at getting anyone to comprehend it...my need for assistance. Whether it … Continue reading Today
Wisdom and Salvation(still needs much revision friends).
"Paul offers a wisdom not to Jews or pagans, but to both Jews AND pagans, whom he calls to see things through wisdom eyes. Conversion, therefore, is not joining a different group, but seeing with the eyes of the crucified. The cross is Paul's philosopher's stone or "code breaker" for any lasting spiritual liberation. God … Continue reading Wisdom and Salvation(still needs much revision friends).
Now
..You can't get there by arguing... But, I love to argue; I mean, I argue even with myself... You can't get there by arguing..
Today
You can't just want the idea. The name. The "truth". The declaration. The tradition. You must want love, peace, and freedom for people. You must have a heart for.. People. Anything we say and do, can be good. But where it matters is; Is your heart being changed for people? Or are your ideas of … Continue reading Today
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Thinking
As change makers, we have to desire to give people hope, freedom, joy; you know, Heaven on Earth stuff. Not our ideas and theories. Most of what you see is what you get: Peoples theories and teachings. Empty words do not create change in our world. They have to be living.
Patchwork
Life is patchwork; Not a single thread. But threaded together instead.
Reconsidering
Who says solitude and even suffering are no good for us? But on the contrary; usually only then have I come face to face with the divine.
Today
I have to remind myself, that we are all the same: Where it is meant to matter. None of us have asked to be born here. Whether under this flag or that. With this faith or the lack of one. With their parents and their own personal baggage. No one has chosen their birthplace, lineage, … Continue reading Today
Today
We focus a lot in our society on outer appearances. The impressions we make and how we appear to the world around us. And our inner world is not regarded as sacred anymore: Worth exploring, delving into, transforming, giving precedence to. Being aware of. What lies within, needs tended to, weeded out, made new. I … Continue reading Today
Tonight
Of course I don’t want to be a complaining, critical, cynical individual. Why shed tears forever and live in resentments chains and fetters; if I need not to? I am aware that peace, patience, kindness, goodness, life and light are the goals. Summed up in love. I’m working on it. This is me crawling there. … Continue reading Tonight
Thinking
If it is primarily the marginalized that are having problems with you; it may be time to re-examine your gospel.
The People’s Spirit.
People in the West, seem to have truly made their intellect god. Even our spiritually here is relatively that. We have lost touch. And made our ideas, theories, explanations, concepts...our spirituality. We have been taught not to trust our spirit. It is to be feared. We are caught up in word play, that’s all it … Continue reading The People’s Spirit.
An Evolving Faith Includes Doubt — Center for Action and Contemplation
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Useless
I’m no good on empty....
Today
I feel guilty for wanting a break. My own space. Is it a necessity? I feel for me, it is so. That’s one thing I have not had in years and it was a daily thing for me: Solitude. Stillness. Silence. Time to listen, To nothing. Is it necessary? Some would say so. Don’t give … Continue reading Today
In a World
In a world full of skeptics, contradictions and questions How do you navigate so many stories told by so many clever men? I know I've experienced both the evil and sacred, Both in the spiritual and physical I've sensed it. I can't always explain the shit, but I can never escape it. Like they say, … Continue reading In a World
Pulpits
From our pulpits, preach service. And not just a here and there, food pantry, holiday fundraiser thing. Teach the laymen, teach the youth...service. Get out in the neighborhoods and find the elderly who need their yards worked on regularly. Find kids that need mentors. Seek out the lonely and lost. Find people in need. Learn … Continue reading Pulpits
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Tired
I'm tired of being the judge, judging. Me, myself, and I; and others... Wanting to know good from evil, and who is leaning toward which side and which isn't.. Myself included. I'm a hoping sinner, a repeat offender..hypocritical individual..I don't get it. I'm tired of being the thinker. The analyzer. I am tired of my … Continue reading Tired
Whatever
Whatever thing you are finding in someone else; be it charachter traits, "immoral" habits, pride, gossip, greed....any thing you claim or believe to see.... Choose to sit for a minute, and see it in yourself. Where does pride lie? Where does greed in any form or degree live in me? Because even a tiny seed, … Continue reading Whatever
Fools Gold
Don’t just fool with words... But, understand the message.
Your Sacrifices
You can discern your creed from the next mans. Distinguishing precept upon precept. Dogma vs dogma. Yet you can’t discern with spiritual vision. Need VS want. Love VS hate. Real VS fake. You’re stuck in your heads and well equipped for arguments.. Yet you know not how to crucify the dark within your own heart, … Continue reading Your Sacrifices
The Flow
Maybe not everything and everyone, are meant to flow together. To sync. Vibe. Make melody. Now, I must learn not to judge why. Is it them, or I? Because typically, my ego is going to lean toward it not being I. I am not the problem. But, I very well could be. We are all … Continue reading The Flow
Today
When you love to write, live to read, and are the self-proclaimed word nerd... Then you gradually come to see.. Words can be so fruitless, empty, tempted to flipping, and can be twisted and manipulative. Filtered though our own heads, Used to wound ... hidden... Are ones intentions.. Words...they lack real essence. We fuck them … Continue reading Today
Today
God, many times I wonder how, if so, you could love and continue to pursue an often angry, contradictory, troubled soul as me. Thank you.
Get out of your head
and into Your Heart. For so long I’ve been taught that I couldn’t trust my heart. That it was a dangerous thing. So I was taught to listen to what was understood. Man’s opinions and descriptions. Teachings and traditions. Knowdlege of…others commentary and prescriptions…of what was “true religion.” Only a few verses and lines to … Continue reading Get out of your head
Daily Meditations Archives — Center for Action and Contemplation
Today
You're already accepted; now time to accept(see, experience, claim, be revealed more) it. ~God
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Hey Baby
Hey baby I love you and I miss you, Won't you sit down and just listen Cuz I've been thinking here and sitting Memories in my head, reminiscing About your humor and your kisses How I'm happy when I'm with ya You keep me going whether you know it Make me feel like something I've … Continue reading Hey Baby
God
God speaks to those who listen And "He" is not as concerned with the logistics, words, traditions, pronunciations, and so forth..like we are. Men are so consumed by it. They want to have rights to it all. Even the way to God( wisdom, knowledge, doctrine, saying, church, ect) He is more concerned with New Birth … Continue reading God
My 3-Year-Old Can Tell I’m Depressed
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Interesting 🤔
Anxiety Is in Your Body, Not Your Mind | by Emma Pattee | Apr, 2021 | Elemental https://elemental.medium.com/anxiety-is-in-your-body-not-your-mind-93031abd14eb
Watch “Jordan Peterson – Borderline Personality Disorder. 🙈🤷♀️Sounds like me.
Great
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Watch “For those who are too hard on themselves 🥺” on YouTube
Miracles
Feeding the 5,000. What if the biggest miracle is in the principle of this story? Would it not be a miraculous thing, to see the hearts of men so transformed that they would take what they had; and in faith divide it amongst the "hungry" ripe on the vine, community in search of hope? That … Continue reading Miracles
Love it 😊
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Today
If we were to be a walking, talking, synoptic Gospel, what would that look like? Riddle me this.
Surrender
Pay what you owe Don't buy what you want And give what is needed. Riddle me this
Today
I felt like God was asking me to read today's devotional(it's actually my sons, and him and I randomly will read it here and there). And before I did so, I felt Him( whome I call God) ask me to hesitate. And He asked me(I felt so, not some audible voice) if I would actually … Continue reading Today
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Watch “What Mushrooms and DMT told me about Jesus Christ” Intriguing 🤯🤯
Today
Why can you use Jesus as an example? For your beliefs and actions. To tell me to be kind and loving, gentle and meek? You tell me I am not Christ like.. my life, my speech. I get it, I'm not perfect, I'm working on it. He's working on me. But why can’t I use … Continue reading Today
Retrospect
You’re religion taught me God is a monster; you gave me the law and the prophets and walked me not through the Gospels. Your example was that He surely does abandon, He is not as tolerant for my sobbing, and He can’t handle my pain...I am the problem... and it was up to me alone … Continue reading Retrospect
Today
Just as I have noticed the many things I was once critical of in others become manifested in my life: things I thought were "sinful and un-godly", evil, worldly you name it... I am also noticing the same things I have accused others of(religious systems in particular) not doing (Christ like service, giving, thinking, sacrifice, … Continue reading Today
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Discernment
Our discernment should be on what's right or wrong. Just or unjust. Merciful or merciless. Loving or hateful. Life Giving or Destructive. Selfless or Selfish. Humble or Prideful. Truthful or Misinterpreted. Intentional or Mistaken. Holy or Unholy. In whose best interest? Heaven on Earth or some other wickedness? Not some mind twisting, encrypted, one million … Continue reading Discernment
Why Don’t We Preach This?
To the man with all the flags in his yard that read: God-Trump-And Guns, Get rid of Joe and the Hoe, and Trump is my President and Jesus my Savior. Also, to my critics who critique me for being a critic of the church. For those that say the church is not perfect; well neither … Continue reading Why Don’t We Preach This?
Convenience
We want to be THE BODY of Christ when it implies gathering, studying, missions trips, spiritual experiences and outings... When it gives us a microphone, a voice, a purpose. A stage, a song, a personal reason. When it gives us a name, or the feeling of power and pride in our "goodness". Yet, we want … Continue reading Convenience
Bad Faith?
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Today
Learn to not compare yourself with others. Or have the same expectations of others you place on yourself, and vice versa. People are born into all types of circumstances. And then, circumstances change throughout life. Our trajectory is dependent in a sense. One man may have been born into a more privileged circumstance for example. … Continue reading Today
How Difficult It Is to See Clearly — Center for Action and Contemplation
Drugs and Jesus(un-reread/draft).
I think I need to work on quitting smoking weed. I've learned throughout these last several fucked up years that God is there. Like there there. Anytime, anywhere. For us. All of us. Even those mf's we can't stand. He wants to be there. For us to know He really is OK with our mess. … Continue reading Drugs and Jesus(un-reread/draft).
Tonight
I get these instant panics Like armageddon's landed They say it's symptomatic You know, Post Tramatic Some type of stress, who'd imagine? I feel like am always running Inside mind, and nerves likewise Little firefly's, but the angry kind Worry worry fast and fury Racing Crazy Hate me Shame me Entangled in this spider's web … Continue reading Tonight
Thinking
God is more in the mundane than anything. The Everyday. The grey. More than He is in our minds where we are so intently trying to find and bind Him. Get rid of the screens, all the teachings, doctrines and theories...and breathe in... God again. Live amidst Him. Not in your ideas of Him.
