I've noticed when I hurt or offend someone, and feel guilty or need to confess it in prayer later; that it seems to be more about my guilt or my need for "redemption" rather than it being about the hurt I've caused. Lord, let this not be so. Change my self-centered heart/mind and fill me … Continue reading Self-Speculation
Drama and Identity
"Most people are in love with their particular life drama. Their story is their identity. The ego runs their life. They have their whole sense of self invested in it. Even their ---usually unsuccessful---search for an answer, a solution, or for healing becomes part of it. What they fear and resist most is the end … Continue reading Drama and Identity
Morning Dose: Catalysts for Change.
"..if you are trapped in a nightmare you will probably be more strongly motivated to awaken than someone who is just caught in the ups and downs of an ordinary dream." ~Eckhart Tolle (The Power of Now).
Tonight’s Dose: Surrender
"It's tempting to try and make a particular job, livelihood, or relationship our salvation.Then we quickly become the slave to whatever we grip the most. But when you make the Divine your Source, you move through life with an ease and lightness, with an open hand. You allow whatever wishes to come, come. And whatever … Continue reading Tonight’s Dose: Surrender
Thought for the night..
It's hard to be there for others, when I'm so full of myself...
God Within
My primary resources to God, have been books and other such things: podcasts, sermons, others experiences..you name it. And as much as I've mentioned this before, I believe some things are worth repeating. For years now I've felt compelled to put it all down, and seek God differently. It's funny because you would think we … Continue reading God Within
Maybe?
There is a time and a place for judgement, is this so? To be reprimanded, corrected? The Church, the professing body of Christ..we can be the first to judge, reprimand and correct. Yet, we can likewise be the last to accept it. And from what I find; we, the people of God, are to be … Continue reading Maybe?
Who Is it For?
When you build a life structured upon having all that you think others would want..out of some inner need to feel important, successful, and relevant...you risk missing out on a life YOU actually will find peace and freedom in. You sacrifice even your very families in a sense; for a world that could care less; … Continue reading Who Is it For?
A Relavent Thought
"The disciplines of prayer and Bible study need to be rooted again and again in Jesus himself if they are not to become idolatrous or self serving. We have often muted Jesus' stark challenge, remaking him in our own image and then wondering why our personal spiritualities have become less than exciting and life-changing....... ....I … Continue reading A Relavent Thought
It is So
I have to constantly remind myself, that any "imperfection" I so identify in someone else; has either at one time, or currently, resides in me. Sometimes it hides and is disguised. Sometimes it is manifesting in another form, fashion, or degree. That shape shifting demon..always acceptable in me..but not in him or her. Cunning and … Continue reading It is So
Thoughts on Carnality
We in many ways, have assumed carnality is solely action based. But, how often do we actually live and operate in carnality; or function like the rest of the world, without even knowing it? Be it our thinking? What drives us? What gets us lifted and makes us feel like we are somebody? Carnality can … Continue reading Thoughts on Carnality
Who I Am
I've wresteld with myself for as long as I can remember. Self contempt. Self hate. Confusion of self. Doubting..questioning self. Primarily with my mental health, my emotions. Why? From where does it all come from? . I've been given a plethora of mixed answers: Psychologist tell me it's an illness. Therapist tell me it's from … Continue reading Who I Am
In His Presence
Lately, as I try to re-enter my life back on Jesus and God; I find myself reaching out for the same "resources"; rather than the Source. Resources, have been my primary means to God, if they be a means..maybe a help..a tool..but I perhaps made them my gods..my idols. For it was what I sought … Continue reading In His Presence
Capitalist and Gift Economy
Time 100 Photographs
I don't know the meaning: but this is where I landed. Thanksgiving Day 1977. I hadn't opened this magazine in months. Today being in a depressed state, I refused to grab from any of my normal readings. All the trust in God and keep on being hopeful ones. So I picked up, Time 100 Photographs: … Continue reading Time 100 Photographs
Images and Words
Images soothe me more than words these days. Words plague me; Images free me. This image that has been coming to me lately; when I am in fear, distress, turmoil...whatever it be. Is Jesus holding this infant me. And I am asleep in His arms, head pressed against his chest. Right under His right shoulder … Continue reading Images and Words
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A Different ?
Maybe we should not be asking ourselves or our congregations; how are we changing minds? But rather, how are we changing hearts? Don’t forget; The Hebrews seen the mind and heart as ultimately connected. There are no separate words for them. How have we followed after the same mind games as the world, more than … Continue reading A Different ?
Christ
I know You not, in the words of man. I don't comprehend, I can't understand. But, I know You in the tempest, I've met You in the storms. Since a raging youth, you've comforted me. Not in thought, not in mind. But deep within, a wind of peace, comes rushing through. I know You from … Continue reading Christ
A Prayer
God, Jesus, Whatever needs done in my life, my soul. In my home, my family, my mind. You’re going to have to do it. For I will not pretend. I will not put on a show, an act. I will not pretend I like this. I cannot put on pretense; I cannot smile and laugh … Continue reading A Prayer
My Peace
I find my most peace, wrapped in the depths of complete silence; Somewhere within. This for me, is when and where all disturbances end. I think, having rarely any instances of this; has played a major role in my mental and emotional health decline. There is always something poking; prodding. A word, a cry. A … Continue reading My Peace
Patience
“Endeavor to be always patient of the faults and imperfections of others, for you have many faults and imperfections of your own that require a reciprocation of forbearance. If you are not able to make yourself that which you wish to be, how can you expect to mould another in conformity to your will?” ~Thomas … Continue reading Patience
Sold Souls
We sell our souls to an image. An image we create to present to the world. Of ourselves. We find no rest; as we hustle and bustle and wear ourselves thin. All for this image we worship; to display proudly before men.
Seek
Seek grace, not instruction, desire not understanding. Seek the groaning of prayer over diligent reading, Seek the Spouse more than the teacher, Seek God not man, darkness(faith/ambuguity) not clarity(certitude). Not light(in the mind) but the fire itself(Spirit/presence of God). ~Bonaventure (my own thoughts in parentheses).
I almost Forgot
In my frustrations, hurts, and what some may rightly call resentments towards the professing church of God; I almost lost sight of who my redeemer is. The God of my Youth. The One who met me, came right beside me; in my most destitute moments. Jesus. Though I no longer have the same hard core … Continue reading I almost Forgot
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Another ?
Maybe the question we should ask ourselves and our congregations; is not, in what ways are you a saint? But rather, in what ways are you a suffering servant?
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What to do?
"If I tell them, they will consider me a fool; if I am silent, I cannot escape my conscience." ~St. Francis, Before Warning The Christian Crusaders.
It’s Spiritual
It's Spiritual Not mental We've sold our souls to the gods of intellect And we still wonder why we are fraught with mental stress Minds a wreck No soul, no depth Covered with all the lies of intellect. Think Think Comprehend it MadMen, minds in torment Soul death We feel it But are afraid to … Continue reading It’s Spiritual
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Revelations
I can be consumed with everything; but His presence. No thoughts, no words, no voices heard... Can do what Presence can. We consume; all that peaks our interests. It can keep us deaf, leave us blinded. There is nothing more life giving, more transforming... Than BEING CONSUMED IN HIM. Lost in His Spirit. Made alive, … Continue reading Revelations
DW
I am thankful for you. Though we've never met, though we know not name nor depth; Such continuance has been uplifting, To a soul who's always looked for any resemblance of a constant father from many. Always looking for pieces of what a father should; even if it is a simple glimpse. Fitting those pieces, … Continue reading DW
Oh Othello,
"Othello's soul is shattered and his whole outlook clouded simply because his ideal is destroyed.." From The Brothers Karamazov, by Dostoevsky
I Spend a Lot of Time
I spend a lot of time trying to convince others. Convince others of my own lessons. The stories and intricacies; meant for me. Between God and me. Now knowing, things can be shared. But, not until we digest and let them do their perfect work in us first. Our soil must be tilled. Prepared for … Continue reading I Spend a Lot of Time
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I’ve Cried to This Several Times in the Last Few Years.
The Unchanged/ Non-rebirthed Church
JP on Trauma
Right Now
God Lift Us
Better than Church 😭❤️
Roles in the Narcissistic Family: The Scapegoat Child
If you were a scapegoat child, it may have felt like you were always wrong and to blame for everything in your family. Understand how to heal. — Read on psychcentral.com/health/scapegoat-child
Its Okay to Cut Ties with Toxic Family Members
Would your life be happier, healthier, and more peaceful without certain people in it? Its never easy to cu — Read on psychcentral.com/blog/imperfect/2019/10/its-okay-to-cut-ties-with-toxic-family-members
Emotional Invalidation: A Form of Emotional Abuse – Live Well with Sharon Martin
Emotional invalidation is painful. Sometimes it's unintentional, but it's a sign of emotional abuse when done repeatedly and intentionally. — Read on http://www.livewellwithsharonmartin.com/emotional-invalidation-emotional-abuse/
Don’t Throw Your Pearls Before Swine. (Needs revision)
This could have many connotations. And like the many beautiful things said in Scriptures, this one does too. For me lately, it resonates with trying to be understood. It does not imply my pearls are any greater or of more value than the next mans; or that the ones I try to get to understand … Continue reading Don’t Throw Your Pearls Before Swine. (Needs revision)
I just want a chance to cry; get it off my miiind
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Parental Stress
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I’ve Heard it Said
It has been said, that one should not proclaim or identify their own gifting; but rather others will. Why is it that when institutions do define your gifts and say, “this is what we see in you, and this is what we believe you have within...” That, when one starts operating in the very thing … Continue reading I’ve Heard it Said
Crazy Wise (Is in English)❤️🤡🙏👻🥰🙏🙏
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Consequences of Stressed Parenting
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We Forgot
We forgot God is alive and well. “He” is living. So we hide inside and think of Him. We bend and shape and form Him; to control Him. We fear loss of control, silly carnal men. We hide inside away from experience. In life; where He really is. He speaks. And we listen, again and … Continue reading We Forgot
State of the Heart
You will find the world ready to mourn with you; And when it’s time to celebrate; you will find out who really wants you happy.
Today
Don’t run yourself ragged; for others. Don’t strive for the things others would. In order to create an appearance the world would applaud. How often we commit to things; for the sake of impressions. How often do we not live for our true self; because we are living to create an image. We toil and … Continue reading Today
Disturbances (Reflections after reading a chapter of The Untethered Soul, by Michael Singer).
If any energy is disturbing us; it is disturbing us alone. In the sense that, only our energy matters to us at the moment. We feel it and are effected by it first and for most. We should not try to control or correct what we believe is causing us disturbance; but rather learn to … Continue reading Disturbances (Reflections after reading a chapter of The Untethered Soul, by Michael Singer).
This Thought
When we finally believe something. As true. We will no longer need to defend it. Defense, like a self preservation agent, is primal. Fear based. Defending is like implying we must protect it. But what is known to be true; need not be lost. Defended. Or protected. It sits still. It needs not object. It … Continue reading This Thought
Mark of the Beast? :Speculating with Self
The mark of the beast maybe, is not to be seen as some physical thing to come into the horizon. It is not some big trick you have to fear stumbling upon. It’s nothing to be figured out. It’s symbolism. It’s going to be(IS) something, every man can/could choose. Not just one particular generation. Look … Continue reading Mark of the Beast? :Speculating with Self
Hello No!?
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Understand
What people don’t seem to understand about suicide, is that it’s not that people want to die. They just don’t want to live.... “ like this.” And I guarantee, most if not all who do, fought a very , very, very good fight before becoming tired of that fight. Just as much as some people … Continue reading Understand
Tonight
I have to accept the fact, that like many poets and extreme men; most their words are taken for granted and dismissed until they lay… a dead man. Words of wisdom are never comprehended by their family and friends. Until they posthumously are finally given some interest. I’m fine with this.
Looking Back
Looking back, my life has been nothing but chaos and conflict; and I’m looking forward to going.
Confessions From The Psych Ward. 🙃
Sometimes I’m afraid to speak such truths. But aren’t they all, products of what is? Reality? Anywho, during my period of PPD(Postpartum Depression) I struggled with suicidal idealization more than I can remember. I had decided to put up a tent. Something we do every year. Just in the backyard. I love to be outdoors … Continue reading Confessions From The Psych Ward. 🙃
Makes sense.
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Today
I finally have both kids in school for a period of time each week day! I feel almost wrong about how excited I am!! 😂 I would have a made a mighty fine monk. The quite, the stillness, the limits on noise and distractions are very welcomed. I don’t know what part of me struggles … Continue reading Today
What to do if your preschooler won’t stop crying at drop-off
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Today: Listening: Welcome to my head: non-Stop thinking with pen.
Listen to yourself. If you need to rest; rest! Nap! Get better sleep. Listen, get to understand your cues. If you’re anxious; go let that shit out!! And productively! Not with nervous thinking, pacing, mind racing shit. Get out and expend that energy!! Sadhguru suggests this;saying physical exertion is best for this negative energy or … Continue reading Today: Listening: Welcome to my head: non-Stop thinking with pen.
What America Can Learn From The Mental Health Care Systems Of Other Countries | Talkspace
Many other countries have universal health care, countries far less wealthy than the U.S. — could the U.S. learn something from them? Read more. — Read on http://www.talkspace.com/blog/america-mental-health-care-systems/
Tonight
Is it true? That the more you do live in the moment, Slow motion. Life slows up? A subtle hush... ...... Practice silence to find it. Even within your head. Live free. BE. IN this moment. HERE. ...... Living in our heads, moment by moment. What unpleasant consumption of so many nothings! Distracted for what … Continue reading Tonight
Today
Oh anxiety, You merciless bastard; You antagonizing demon. You relentless hell; You terrorizer, you beast.
Today 2
If I take solace in anything; I take it in the fact I’ve fought. I’ve tried. Despite what others may say and think and what I tell myself many times; I know I’ve done my very best to seek help. For the last several years since this has become a terror for me; I have … Continue reading Today 2
Today
Help me Jesus, I don’t want to die; But I cannot and do not, want to live like this. ~Samantha
Why You Need Time Away From Your Family | by Jennifer Haubrich | Medium
I used to wonder how some women could pack up and leave their husbands and kids. I don’t mean permanently. I’m talking about even for a few days. Why would someone choose to go on vacation or spend… — Read on jen-2163.medium.com/why-you-need-time-away-from-your-family-e0f3c5809342
Next Read?
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What’s Up
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Today
Condemn me for living a lie. For living in pretense. For hiding behind...whatever one hides truth behind. But, do not condemn me for my honesty: For saying I needed a break. A bigger and healthier support system. For admitting I’m stressed, overwhelmed, and could use just a few hours a day to myself; in order … Continue reading Today
Today
This is why I get tired of advocating for my own mental health lol. Today is the 1st of September. I call for an apt, expressing my need and that I am really depressed. My apt is the 29th..... A month away. Just hang in there, she said. Thanks, good old mental health care.
Maybe
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Today
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Why You Shouldn’t Hope for the Best
“Misfortune weighs most heavily on those who expect nothing but good fortune.” – Seneca Have you ever noticed how we’re taught that our wants and …Why You Shouldn’t Hope for the Best
Single Mother
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10 Signs You Need A Break From Motherhood
When you become a mother, you love your children so much and experience special days. But sometimes, you need a break from your tiring routine. — Read on http://www.moms.com/signs-need-break-from-motherhood/amp/
What We Mean When We Say We Need a Break | HuffPost Life
What We Mean When We Say We Need a Break | HuffPost Life — Read on http://www.google.com/amp/s/www.huffpost.com/entry/stay-at-home-parent_b_2558642/amp
When a Mom Says She Needs a Break – Her View From Home
When a mom says she needs a break what she's really saying is she needs time to set down the mental load of motherhood and reset herself. — Read on herviewfromhome.com/motherhood-needs-a-break/
Single moms can find little relief from chronic stress | Pittsburgh Post-Gazette
Unfortunately, like a NASCAR driver, the single mother faces stress at every turn. — Read on http://www.post-gazette.com/news/health/2013/02/18/Single-moms-can-find-little-relief-from-chronic-stress/stories/201302180231
Single Parent and Depression: My Experience with Depression
Depression is a different story for single parents, who might not have someone to take care of them and their kids while they heal. Here's one mom’s story. — Read on http://www.healthline.com/health/single-parenting-and-depression
High Risk for Anxiety, Depression, and Stress Observed Among Single Mothers – Psychiatry Advisor
This research promotes the use of more rigorous screening efforts for mental illness among single mothers. — Read on http://www.psychiatryadvisor.com/home/topics/mood-disorders/depressive-disorder/high-risk-for-anxiety-depression-and-stress-observed-among-single-mothers/
Why Moms Need So Much Time Alone To Be Happy | Filter Free Parents
“You're isolating again” my husband said, referring to the fact that I'd spent a good part of the night in our room because sometimes I need some time alone — Read on filterfreeparents.com/why-moms-need-so-much-time-alone-to-be-happy/
Hello
I would say unlike what one would call normal: life for the most part good, with intermittent sorrows; mine has been the reverse. And this is not to exaggerate. It is just my truth. And I am at this moment, feeling the need to accept that. To accept my pain. And my sorrow. I think … Continue reading Hello
Childhood Trauma.
Lately
I feel like not loving lately. I don't want to force myself to be kind any longer. I want to not care anymore, honestly. To be my old, asshole self; because it comes more naturally. But eventually, it becomes painful to be like that. I'm tired of being nice. Fighting the side of me that … Continue reading Lately
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I love him
Maybe for not all of the best reasons; Yet I love him. For all he is. For the calm, The connection, The presence, His reflections.. On life. Himself. Myself. Who knows, It's perfect in it's rebelliousness. It's alive and well.
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Tonight (Needs revision)
I find it is much easier for me to scrutinize another's errors, flaws, and character defects; when they are ones that I have already overcome,or have under better control. And the things that are MY own errors, flaws, and character defects; I am much easier at justifing and explaining away. Well, ugly is common to … Continue reading Tonight (Needs revision)
The Same
I find that we stand on many same grounds: All born here, in our own place and time; no decision on our part when, where, and why. Then we each are "programmed" by many men and systems, and told..this is what it is. And we all blindly go for it. That's it.
God Is Love Period
I've found peoples near death experiences, much more compelling and beautiful; than the things people have only been able to pass down through tell. I can't put more confidence in written pen; than I can real lives who have experienced the same transformational bliss, over, and over, and over again. Light and Love they say. … Continue reading God Is Love Period
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Tell Me
Where did you get this disposition? This calm, gentleness, loving soothingness? Is it natural? From where did you learn this? Did a loved one hold you tight as a kid? When all your worries and fears would come and enter in? Did someone keep you from all the things that could frighten you? Shelter you … Continue reading Tell Me
I Hate Myself Today
I hate myself again today. As much as I promise myself, God, whoever; that I'll be kinder, more loving..gentle. I find myself being that same gossip that I condem in one bitch; and the same self-occupied, egocentric person that I resent in that friend. I find myself still critical of people and am having a … Continue reading I Hate Myself Today
This theme keeps coming and from totally different sources: Theme of unity and interdependence. 3rd time today in 3 diff sources. Last post was one as well.
' "Paradise", he went on, 'lies hidden within all of us- here it lies hidden in me now, and if I desire it, it will become a reality for me tomorrow and remain with me the rest of my life."..... .....' " And that each of us is responsible for all men and all things, apart … Continue reading This theme keeps coming and from totally different sources: Theme of unity and interdependence. 3rd time today in 3 diff sources. Last post was one as well.
The Power of Interdependence : An excerpt.
“The Christian tradition is filled with references, stories, and metaphors that speak to [this dynamic] interdependence. Paul’s metaphor comparing the community of church to the human body captures the essence of our interdependence. When Paul wrote his letter to the church at Corinth, he understood that its members ministered within a bustling city much like … Continue reading The Power of Interdependence : An excerpt.
Hmmmmm
It might not always be that someone can't get over something; But that, maybe they are still amazed no one else can see it. The message may be so valid to them; that they have made it a mission. 🤷♀️
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Why Alone Time Is Crucial for Introverted Moms (and How to Stop Guilt)
For The Mom Who Is Sick And Tired Of ‘Mom-Guilt’ – Simple Slow & Lovely
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I lay here. And I ask Him; I try to, Give up the ghost.. But He will not receive me...
This Morning
I was out back having an emotional pity party. Apologizing to God for all my bad qualities that seem to never give me rest. The things that persist in me; the things I at times am inclined to fall back into. And here I go crying, and decide to open up one of the many … Continue reading This Morning
Thinking
Even good things can be weapons. Think about the reasons you post/say/do things beforehand and notice your intentions: Is it a subliminal or not so subliminal message? And even though the message is good in essence or even vaild; notice, do I have it aimed at an individual? Then see, that you yourself are playing … Continue reading Thinking
Rhyming Self Loathe in The Light Though
I hate myself sometimes, I am my biggest rival. I pick apart every conscious thought and it's mind-boggling, But yet I keep writing, I can't keep from rymhing. It's one beat that I can keep. Rhythm and blues is my soul beneath. I sing aloud -aloud..real loud again these days; I sat down and I … Continue reading Rhyming Self Loathe in The Light Though
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What if God asked you to take the back seat? 🤔 What would that mean in your case?
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At a Loss for Words
We try and tackle words to the disadvantage of everyone. Oh, Babel, Babel. For instance, if I were praying now, and felt God press upon me, "come find me." And I so happened to post that or tell someone. I most likely would come across some that are so invested in word play, they no … Continue reading At a Loss for Words
Today
I'm depressed today; nothing major, maybe PMSing.. But I've been crying alot.. self-pity and self-resentment are running the show today. I've been blaming myself, guilt-trips and than the victim persona hits; and I don't know what it is. But I think it's all related and relevant when we get to the gist of it. But … Continue reading Today
The Future
What we need to teach our kids, is mf emotional regulation. We need to quit hyperfocusing on physical ability and head knowledge; and give them ways to handle the pain, the ache, and the quake. We have given them all these tools to succeed materially; and yet for another man usually. You know the cycle. … Continue reading The Future
Private and Public
I recently had made my blog private because I have felt unworthy of my own opinions. (But said fuck it) Disclaimer* I am not a preacher or teacher or perfect servant of Jesus or God. Nor do I claim to be. I am just being honest when I'm blogging whether it's right or wrong; they … Continue reading Private and Public
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Who is Doing the Seeing?
"When we see things in an intuitive way, in conscious union with the eyes of God, what we see is qualitatively different. Basically, it is no longer self-referential but very expansive seeing, and this changes everything.... Many see a supposedly good "new thing" but still in an old way, which is to say, with their … Continue reading Who is Doing the Seeing?
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Duty
"There is nothing as unbearable as someone doing something for you because they believe it is their duty. The sanctimony of it can make it intolerable. If you are too dutiful, you will die of its burden and people around you will die of bordom! If you have love for something, you do it; if … Continue reading Duty
Thinking Again
It troubles me that the church, or professing body of Christ, can “discern” correct doctrine; yet are so unable to discern the human condition. The need of another. The lost. Or the cost at that. I find Jesus above all else, so in-tune with people, He changes them so. He is able to perceive what … Continue reading Thinking Again
The Shit
I’ve found that the less I allow myself to consume; be it wants or cravings, things that numb me, things that guide me, the things that I can give my attention to.. The more I am at ease. And, the more I allow myself to have that is unnecessary, comes along with even more things … Continue reading The Shit
Yes
Good Read : Gaslighting
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Brethren
We wrestle with all the complexities found in mysteries, and avoid the clearest messages found in scroll. Why is this so?
Random Rhyme Time
A clean conscience makes a great heaven. You are what you eat, that shit can go in all directions. We reap and we sow, karma collectors..persons influenced by every suggestion. We are all our biggest projections, shit instilled..past subconscious recollections. Puzzle pieces of our each personal histories..tragedies and beautiful things... Shaped by all that's made … Continue reading Random Rhyme Time
Nature
I'm often so very full of myself; and likewise I despise my own self more than any other man/woman I know.
Brilliant
Signs and wonders
Why aren't we seeing more of Thee? Could it be that men prefer certainties over mysteries? Where are the sons having visions and daughters seeing dreams? Where is the, thou shall do more than me? Stuck in the building still searching for explanations, again discussing impossible equations..to the detriment of human beings. You’ll find them … Continue reading Signs and wonders
Today
We are much more comfortable distinguishing and performing the lesser evils, than we are the greater goods.
I’m
I'm an angry bitch, that's the most of it. Gotta watch my mouth, I like to complain and shit. It's been a long ass trip, Painfulness. Life that is. I can't explain it. My existence is half manic, but mostly sadness. It eats away at me, it ravages. I get up, only to fall again. … Continue reading I’m
People
People like to look at ones life and judge it. Point out all the failures. Yet they don't know how many obstacles others have had to fight through, to simply make it through. They don't consider what could have been; if one just allowed themselves to succumb to all the past traumas and situations that … Continue reading People
Wonderful!
"...Francis's starting place was human suffering instead of human sinfulness, and God's identification with that suffering in Jesus. That did not put Him in conflict with any (Catholic) dogmas or strictures. His Christ was cosmic while deeply personal, his cathedral was creation itself, he preferred the bottom of society to the top. He invariably emphasized … Continue reading Wonderful!
What’s IN a word?
What is IN a word? That's what matters. Not how you understand or relate to a word. But rather,, what a person is trying to get across and convey with the word(s) they have chosen. Words are man made. Content is not. Don't confuse the word for the content and vice versa.
Thinking Again
I often ponder and struggle with why people sort of take for granted the plethora of verses and admonitions found in The Bible concerning treating others right, giving to the poor, denying self, going out to the margins; And give so much more weight to the few (in contrast with the lessons of love and … Continue reading Thinking Again
Watch “Wim Hof’s thoughts on psychedelics, coffee, and m…” on YouTube
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I Write
I told myself I should start writing more positive or praise worthy things. To let everyone know I am a happy person too haha. I caught myself though; wanting to do it for approval. Something I have done my whole life: tried to conform for approval. No one's fault; but my own faulty thinking for … Continue reading I Write
Stop the Mission Trips
Stop making vacations out of missions trips. Make interpersonal relationships, with those not like you, or those in need of other people...your mission. Just a thought.
My attitudes on Church
I don't have anything against people or individuals in general when it comes to my critique and attitude towards church stuff. My intentions are to point at an attitude or mentality, that can be found within the church's "mind" or life in general. Things that are so taken for granted, that they are not questioned. … Continue reading My attitudes on Church
The Undoing of Me 