This comes from a book about conscious parenting, but I find most the material is suitable and helpful for anyone. “If we want [our children] to master their emotions, we have to teach them to surrender to what they are experiencing. This isn’t the same as getting sucked into our emotions or reacting. Surrender means … Continue reading Pain and Being Present
When I look honestly enough, I see the same shit in myself, that I judge and point at others for. They sometimes may be on different spectrums or manifesting differently, these attributes. Yet in essence they are one. At core level, they are the same.
I feel guilty for my many words and my many reactions….. And as I sit here wallowing in my own guilt ridden, touchy conscience, I have to ask myself, am I sorry for what I did and the hurt it caused? Or am I sorry because I feel guilty and that’s a painful thing for … Continue reading Apologies
What consciousness (conscious awareness) is not: Not being in the present moment, but lost in thoughts of the past or worries of the future. Pondering and analyzing any and everything, that is not needed in that exact moment. Reacting, rather than responding. Being possessed by your emotional triggers; they being what drives you rather than … Continue reading Consciousness: Notes To Self.
“Whatever your thought process or emotional process may be, it is just local gossip, very localized to you. Enjoy it if it is nice, but don’t believe it.”
Why hold fast to one piece of the puzzle; when there is still so much many pieces to sort and put together? Why not put the piece aside? Many times, with puzzles, mysteries~ you find that the pieces you have, don’t fit quite right, or you can’t find their proper place. And you will find, … Continue reading Puzzles and Pieces
How often I’ve mistaken my mind for my heart(soul), and vice-versa. How often they’ve told me my mind was the way; but my heart could not be trusted. How often I’ve listened to the deliberations and patterns of my conditioned mined; While silencing my soul when it spoke of love, While tying down my heart … Continue reading Soul and Mind
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Excerpt taken from, The Tao of Pooh; by Benjamin Hoff. Reflecting on a riddle called Cottleston Pie; Pooh and the narrator dig deeper into the riddle: “Why does a chicken do what it does? You don’t know? Neither do we. Neither does anyone else. Science likes to strut around and Act Smart by putting labels … Continue reading Instinct and Intellect
Note: I talk in extremes to make points. I don’t necessarily think the church should be perfect or is filled with all hypocrites. I don’t think one must debase themselves and live in poverty and grief to be a follower of Christ. My objective is to show how churches do tend to overly focus and … Continue reading Wild Wild West
For me, I don't want to live by the "rules" and expectations of a society steeped in greed, materialism, consumerism, and so forth. I want my spirit to lead me. I have to realize what I do for others, VS what I do for myself. And when it comes to a lot of things most … Continue reading Do You Build Your Life Around Your Authentic Self or our Cultures Expectations and Ideals?
“It is not the pursuit of greater and greater states of happiness and bliss that leads to enlightenment(finally seeing things for what they really are), but the yearning for Reality and the rabid dissatisfaction with living anything less than a fully authentic life.” “The worlds problems are, by and large, human problems-the unavoidable consequence of … Continue reading Coming to an End of Self..Finally Waking to Realize the Dissatisfaction We’ve Called Living.
"Most people are in love with their particular life drama. Their story is their identity. The ego runs their life. They have their whole sense of self invested in it. Even their ---usually unsuccessful---search for an answer, a solution, or for healing becomes part of it. What they fear and resist most is the end … Continue reading Drama and Identity
"It's tempting to try and make a particular job, livelihood, or relationship our salvation.Then we quickly become the slave to whatever we grip the most. But when you make the Divine your Source, you move through life with an ease and lightness, with an open hand. You allow whatever wishes to come, come. And whatever … Continue reading Tonight’s Dose: Surrender
We sell our souls to an image. An image we create to present to the world. Of ourselves. We find no rest; as we hustle and bustle and wear ourselves thin. All for this image we worship; to display proudly before men.
It's Spiritual Not mental We've sold our souls to the gods of intellect And we still wonder why we are fraught with mental stress Minds a wreck No soul, no depth Covered with all the lies of intellect. Think Think Comprehend it MadMen, minds in torment Soul death We feel it But are afraid to … Continue reading It’s Spiritual
Don’t run yourself ragged; for others. Don’t strive for the things others would. In order to create an appearance the world would applaud. How often we commit to things; for the sake of impressions. How often do we not live for our true self; because we are living to create an image. We toil and … Continue reading Today
Stop making vacations out of missions trips. Make interpersonal relationships, with those not like you, or those in need of other people...your mission. Just a thought.
Am I exposing to many truths, like ego self abuse? Or is this what really is 100 proof? I’ve found there is release in mentioning all my many many tragedies..even if many are actually quite stigmatizing and possibly embarrassing 💁🏻🙈 But shit, it is what is, and this is my fucking reality. At times it’s … Continue reading Tonight
Enter at your own risk, I'm lost in thought and have no script I think a lot, I'm prone to fits I've been fucked up, still at 36 I feel like Rogue, that X-Men chic I have to watch who I touch, who I open up with I mean well, but my mind is a … Continue reading I’ve Told you Before, I Don’t Know What it is, So you Title It.
The Kingdom of Heaven, starts with YOU. You see, that mustard seed, that grain of wheat..is YOU. We want to see the harvest. We want to see the progress. We want to reach the masses, not realizing..death is in letting go..of all those expectations and ego boosters. That seed(beginning/new way/new life) is first buried. Unseen. … Continue reading Today: Heaven is…(need to edit still)
One may be quite surprised at how clearly and often He speaks, when man made interferences, distractions, and clutter are eliminated from daily life. We make it mundane.
One good reason death to self, being last, self-sacrifice, and carrying ones cross; can all be symbolized by crucifixion..is because crucifixion is to the body, what self denial is to the ego. We will do anything before choosing to crush/insult ego. It is the most "excruciating" thing. We will even firmly believe our own reasonings … Continue reading The First Will Be Last 🤔
We've been conditioned into subconsciously always asking ourselves, "how can I be first?", in any given situation. It comes natural. We aren't even aware of it typically. Begin to practice asking yourself, "how can I be last?"; and you'll soon realize how self interested, you really are.
All that we need to do, is the RIGHT thing. Not fight to avoid the sinful things, and adhere to all the religious ones. But, quite oneself and be willing to ask what the right thing is, in any given circumstance, situation, or season. All have been given an answer. Our inner voice/soul/connection to God. … Continue reading The Right Thing is….
"I don't believe the economic motive and the erotic motive account for everything that goes on in the world. It's a lust...a longing to be inside,[which] takes many forms....You want...the delicious knowledge that just we four or five- we are the people who (really) know....As long as you are governed by that desire you will … Continue reading The Things we Crave.
I FIND THAT I AM A LOT MORE SELF-OBSESSED: self-concerned, self-critical, self-centered, self- justifying, self-absorbed... my pain, my flaws, my wrongs and rights, my hurts, my points, my feelings, my happiness.. my life, my time, my heart and mind. ....on and on and on , THAN I HAD ONCE THOUGHT... damn it’s gross! If I … Continue reading Following Awareness
The only time we should consider others, is to ask ourselves, “will it help them or hurt them?” This is the one single time we should allow others into our headspace. Other than that, I do not see any purpose or justification. For what is all other consideration and contemplating of another’s life, if it’s … Continue reading Consider Who… Yeah You. 🙋🏻♀️
You are what you eat , fuel and feed. Watch what you speak and consider how you see. Tis true, mind what you sow; every tiny, little seed. It all reproduces..be it green trees or tangled weeds Flowing rivers or dried up streams. Some give life, some cause death. It takes residence in your heart, … Continue reading BE ? Who are You and How?
Does it give life? Restore? Heal? Protect? Shed warm, revealing, gentle light? Are the followers of any particular path fostering life, light, and love? Are they moving more and more towards it? Are they at peace, is it easy to be in their presence? What do their words and lifestyles speak of? Are they moving … Continue reading Life, Light and Love.
I'm learning to not mind being as authentic as possible. As a gift to myself if anything. Being true to myself, my reality. Why lie to the crowd? Why be someone else or pretend I am keeping up with the Jane's and Jones's, when I'm really a hot mess? Why does wearing a painted mask … Continue reading Embrace You. The REAL You. And Love it Enough to Let Others, Even Haters Know it too. 😜🤔🤓🤐🤡😈😇🤣😬😬😬😬💁
Blue sky, few clouds. Ocean far, ocean wide, no shores to be found. On my back, arms and legs stretched way out. Floating upon calm waves..rocking me to hushed sleep...above these deep seas. Nothing in my power. All is well. I let go. I surrender to this river. Arms stretched..legs out...face to the sky. I … Continue reading Vision Of Surrender.
God, often I wonder what you think of me, Cuz I know what I think of me. And lately I've been fighting, some demons and it's frightening. Too much thinking in the night time, in the morning nothing looks right. Legendary Abstract Who's to say? She's all that! Broken homes, too many fights Booze and … Continue reading I don’t Know What This Is
As I sat here praying, I asked God what He felt about my interest in other spiritual leaders. Some of whom my old self would have considered heretical or wolves in sheep's clothing. Was it dangerous to my soul? Am I being led astray, along a winding path toward hell? Or is there also truth, … Continue reading Does God Want us Whole or Adherents?
You can't help a lost world, through worldy meassures. The system is not meant to be replicated, but rather torn down and rebuilt. New birth. Follower's of Christ, are called to replicate Christ, just as He replicates the Father. Lost souls do not need another worldly system, they need revolution and re-birth. Christ un-apologeticly entered … Continue reading Show Me the Father.
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" ..the goal is not the perfect avoidance of all sin, which is not possible anyway( 1 John 1:8-9; Romans 5:12), but the struggle itself, and the encounter and wisdom that comes from it. Law and failure create the foil, which creates the conflict, which leads to a very different kind of victory than any … Continue reading The Goal
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I will say this, all the wrong attidudes and things I've condemned in others: greed, self-centeredness, gossip, accusations, pride, hypocrisy, lusts, materialism, comparison..you name it; I've likewise found in me. They may not manifest in the same ways or they might vary in degrees..but at their core, they are of the SAME spirit.
To me, social media means neglecting and missing out on all things meaningful and valuable, In exchange for all things superficial and empty. Those people and moments I neglect, For strangers and white washed tall tales of happiness. My children looking to me for acceptance and approval, While I scroll for the world's...👍
I have grown and learned more from struggle, than anything else in life. This is the paradox of suffering and want. It has made me more humane. It has forged within me more compassion and gratefulness, than any fine thing. It has opened my eyes to what really matters, and what things are just not … Continue reading Me on a Thinking Tangent: Nothing New.