Author: Renegade Jane
Worshippers and Followers; Saints and Servants
There’s No Excuse For Mental Illness..
Essence and Form, What is the ?
God is Essence, without form. Though "He" lovingly and humbly descends to our level, "He" is not fixed on label & name. For, God Is Essence. "He" is impartial to the outward man, and sees with eyes we cannot comprehend. Into man, where most men dare not tread. But most are stuck outside, blind, a … Continue reading Essence and Form, What is the ?
The only devil you have to fight is the one within, and it takes a lifetime to reel him in. And the way to heaven, there is no such thing as it. It too is right there within. You have all you need to enter in. Centered sit. No thoughts no script, feel for it.
Something Else Must Fill Me: All personal attempts are futile and ineffective….
"Empty and dark shall I raise my lantern, And the guardian of the night shall fill it with oil and he shall light it also." ~Kahlil Gibran; The Prophet
One of Them Days
Attachments and Energies
If you get attached to everyone the same: the same strength of passion, the same longing within, then what is really significant about one amongst the others? It is most likely, not the connection of two people and thier energies, but more possibly something within you that is out of coherence. That is responsible for … Continue reading Attachments and Energies
Words off a Page
"Attachment is blinding; it lends an imaginary halo of attractiveness to the object of desire." ~Sri Yukteswar; as told by Paramahansa Yogananda in his book: Autobiography of a Yogi
The Message and The Messenger
Consumed and preoccupied with who the messenger is, we forget the message Itself. Upon receiving a gift or a letter, what are you looking for? For what do you await? Is it the deliverer of the package, or the envelope itself? Why no, for even the fanciest of coverings or containers would not be what … Continue reading The Message and The Messenger
A 5 Line Night
The Kingdom of Heaven is within you There, is a Fountain. Why look so far? Why try so hard…. Enter In
Often times I wonder what mainstream Christians would think of someone in a trance.. like Peter. I know what I would have thought, because I once did. I never considered that Peter, the guy with the keys, was apparently spaced out on a rooftop. I would have thought: occult stuff, witchcraft, New Age, something un-"Godly", … Continue reading Peter’s Trance
Journey to Wholeness
"The journey to wholeness requires that you look honestly, openly and with courage into yourself, into the dynamics that lie behind what you feel, what you perceive, what you value, and how you act. It is the journey through your defenses and beyond so that you can experience consciously the nature of your personality, face … Continue reading Journey to Wholeness
Suppressing and Releasing
Suppressing emotions, moods, attitudes, feelings, assumptions, desires, cravings, thoughts, you name it; only keeps them there. It maximizes the energy of said things. It is holding onto them. Allowing them to accumulate and build; which in turn eventually means eruption. If all is energy, these things too, are energized. They have to be released or … Continue reading Suppressing and Releasing
Religion and Spirituality
"Religion asks you to learn from the experience of others. Spirituality urges you to seek your own. Religion cannot stand Spirituality. It cannot abide it. For Spirituality may bring you to a different conclusion than a particular religion-- and this no known religion can tolerate." ~Neale Donald Walsch; Conversations with God, An Uncommon Dialogue, Book … Continue reading Religion and Spirituality
Questioning Your Answers
Do you believe it because you were told to believe it, or else? Or do you believe it because you know it to be true? Do you believe it because someone else said they have seen it, or do you believe it through your own experience of such things? Do you believe it out of … Continue reading Questioning Your Answers
It's all energy babeeeee
What He Said:
"How wonderful (it is) to be free of yourself." ~Eckhart Tolle
Vultures and a Carcass
Sometimes I feel like everyone needs something of me, and in this mind, these hands, there's just nothing left to give. Every single family member I have, is so detrimentally unstable, literally on the verge of collapse. Sometimes I wish someone would just carry me for once; I can no longer lift. I'm surrounded by … Continue reading Vultures and a Carcass
Breathe in, Breathe out. That’s it, That’s all.
Searching for so many answers, reasons, rhymes, and why's. The look of desperation, in ones eyes. Frantically calculating, Self-manipulation of the mind. Tossing and turning, sleepless nights. When all along, it's just been letting go, Breathing in, exhaling; Resting in souls depths, no questioning nor contemplating.. Simply sitting there, no mind.
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When THEY Said: Go Within…
Every and All
I see Life, Spirit, Light, Love in everyone. You can no longer persuade me, that "God" resides in thought alone and not Spirit. Not Essence. That God is confined to form, to words, to mortal mans conceptions. That Spirit is imprisoned to Nation, Tribe, Ideology, Language, Gender, Race, Region, Religion, or Theory. That one's mind … Continue reading Every and All
Thinking and Suffering
"The primary cause of unhappiness is never the situation but your thoughts about it."~Eckhart Tolle "There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so." ~Shakespeare
Words and Space.
There are no magic formulas. Just sacred spaces. There are no potions made of specific words; Nor these or those thoughts. Just sacred spaces. Spaces, containing energy. The thoughts or words one chooses, are based upon the energy one is wishing to express or manifest. Though they may influence or feed pre-existing energies, they are … Continue reading Words and Space.
The Chase and The Stillness: Rumi
"When I run after what I think I want, my days are a furnace of stress and anxiety; if I sit in my own place of patience, what I need flows to me, and without pain. From this I understand that what I want also wants me, is looking for me and attracting me. There is … Continue reading The Chase and The Stillness: Rumi
What He Said: Eckhart Tolle.
"I didn't realize yet that thinking without awareness is the main dilemma of human existence." From A New Earth.
Afternoon Pondering: Of Nights and Sunrises. Of Nightmares and Daydreams.
I've felt the darkest depths imaginable to the human soul; at least anything much darker, to me, is unfathomable. And yet, and yet I stand.
Love, Relationships and our Reasons we go into Them.
"If you both agree at a conscious level that the purpose of your relationship is to create an opportunity, not an obligation---- an opportunity for growth, for full Self expression, for lifting your lives to their highest potential, for healing every false thought or small idea you ever had about you,.........if you take that vow … Continue reading Love, Relationships and our Reasons we go into Them.
We are Creators
" You can choose to be a person who has resulted simply from what has happened, or from what you've chosen to be and do about what has happened." ~Neale Donald Walsch; Conversations with God, an Uncommon Dialogue.
Within the Abyss
Oh dark heart, what shall it take to keep you tame? So many fresh starts, good intentions and hope filled predictions. So many efforts and attempts to be kinder and brighter, only to plummet to your deepest descents again. Should this be called a war within? Or better yet, a striving against? Oh vain attempts. … Continue reading Within the Abyss
Clever Freddie, The Show Must Go On!
"You know when you know you've gone rotten, really rotten? Fruit flies. Dirty little fruit flies, coming to feast on what's left. Well there isn't much left for you to feast on anymore." ~Freddie Mercury in Bohemian Rhapsody
Like Cancer; What He Said: Eckhart Tolle
"Ego-identification with things creates attachment to things, obsession with things, which in turn creates our consumer society and economic structures where the only measure of progress is always more. The unchecked striving for more, for endless growth, is a dysfunction and a disease. It is the same dysfunction the cancerous cell manifests, whose only goal … Continue reading Like Cancer; What He Said: Eckhart Tolle
An Epilogue to The Past Several Years Pains; a Prayer more Hopeful, in that I desire to Be.
I lay here, waiting for sleep. To replenish, much needed energy. And quite unlike the last several years pleas, for the Earth to receive me, to hasten my travels beyond mortals hell (earth). I sense God/Source/Love and Light (all names suffice, for what is in a name, but the very Essence that actually defines it?) … Continue reading An Epilogue to The Past Several Years Pains; a Prayer more Hopeful, in that I desire to Be.
Missing the Mark…
"There are no coincidences in the universe. I have heard the crying of your heart. I have seen the searching of your soul. I know how deeply you have desired Truth. In pain have you called out for it, and in joy. Unendingly have you beseeched Me. Show Myself. Explain Myself. Reveal Myself. .... Let … Continue reading Missing the Mark…
Of Tithes( What I Give/Dish) and Truth.
God, Source, Love and Light, I'm realizing all I can give you, is solely my truth. Even when it's ugly, Let not my kind actions and words be nothing's; forced, fraudulent attempt's to prove something. Let me not lie to myself, when my outward ways are brighter than my thoughts and feelings. May I be … Continue reading Of Tithes( What I Give/Dish) and Truth.
Break the Norms
"Too many souls suffer the disillusionment that comes from following a destiny that is not their own. Instead of waking up joyful and energized, many of us feel like robots, pushing forward like a machine to keep life going. We feel traped by our commitments and lost without material things we believe we must have. … Continue reading Break the Norms
You are the sky. Everything else is just the weather. ~Pema Chodron
If I could go back in time and change anything, it would be, to be more consciously present. Conscious of every moment, of every memory created. Conscious of every word spoken and small act taken. Present with my children mostly, and family and friend. There with them, not ruminating within. More than any other thing, … Continue reading Nighttime Reflections
Clay and Seeds
The clay does not inquire of itself, what it will be. And neither must it ask another. It need not be told what it is too become. The clay simply is. It suffers through. It does nothing, but be. It thinks not. But is. And allows itself, to be done. The seed, it does not … Continue reading Clay and Seeds
So You Want to be a Writer:
Seeker of Silences
“A seeker of silences am I, and what treasure have I found in silences that I may dispense with confidence?” ~Kahlil Gibran: The Prophet
I am my happiest self; When I am my authentic self.
The Essential Nature of Things:
I AM & IT IS
“And a man said, Speak to us of Self-Knowledge. And he answered, saying: Your hearts know in silence the secrets of the days and nights. (Our spirits know what we long to understand. Our Spirit is aware, though we may physically not be.) But your ears thirst for the sound of your heart’s knowledge. (We … Continue reading Self-Knowledge:
Time slows down, when you slow down with it.
Stillness asks Me
Stillness asks me, as a reach for my phone, the remote, a book, for anything to fill the stillness. “When will you listen?” Stillness reminds me, that now is the perfect time. In this moment, when nothing is there to distract. Unless I allow it. And stillness whispers, “ will you listen?”
Mind and I
Pain and Being Present
This comes from a book about conscious parenting, but I find most the material is suitable and helpful for anyone. “If we want [our children] to master their emotions, we have to teach them to surrender to what they are experiencing. This isn’t the same as getting sucked into our emotions or reacting. Surrender means … Continue reading Pain and Being Present
When I look honestly enough, I see the same shit in myself, that I judge and point at others for. They sometimes may be on different spectrums or manifesting differently, these attributes. Yet in essence they are one. At core level, they are the same.
I feel guilty for my many words and my many reactions….. And as I sit here wallowing in my own guilt ridden, touchy conscience, I have to ask myself, am I sorry for what I did and the hurt it caused? Or am I sorry because I feel guilty and that’s a painful thing for … Continue reading Apologies
Consciousness: Notes To Self.
What consciousness (conscious awareness) is not: Not being in the present moment, but lost in thoughts of the past or worries of the future. Pondering and analyzing any and everything, that is not needed in that exact moment. Reacting, rather than responding. Being possessed by your emotional triggers; they being what drives you rather than … Continue reading Consciousness: Notes To Self.
Sadhguru Thoughts and Emotions
“Whatever your thought process or emotional process may be, it is just local gossip, very localized to you. Enjoy it if it is nice, but don’t believe it.”
I was mediating outside this evening. And I am getting better with practice, at really having my mind clear of all thoughts. And just being there with only my feelings in the background. And it’s like a wide open space, almost like floating...the sensation within. An expansiveness. So weird. And I’ve been really learning to … Continue reading Nature Nurtures
Puzzles and Pieces
Why hold fast to one piece of the puzzle; when there are still so many to piece together ? Why not put the piece aside? Many times, with puzzles, mysteries~ you find that the pieces you have don’t fit quite right, or you can’t find their proper place. And you will find, that if you … Continue reading Puzzles and Pieces
Soul and Mind
How often I’ve mistaken my mind for my heart(soul), and vice-versa. How often they’ve told me my mind was the way; but my heart could not be trusted. How often I’ve listened to the deliberations and patterns of my conditioned mind While silencing my soul when it spoke of love, While tying down my heart … Continue reading Soul and Mind
Reason and Passion: Khalil Gibran (The Prophet)
“And the priestess spoke again and said: Speak to us of Reason and Passion. And he answered, saying: Your soul is oftentimes a battlefield, upon which your reason and your judgment wage war against your passion and your appetite. Would that I could be the peacemaker in your soul, that I might turn the discord … Continue reading Reason and Passion: Khalil Gibran (The Prophet)
Finding Beauty in Brokeness – Pointless Overthinking
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I lost my faith in Christianity, when it became clearer, that the majority of professing followers of Christ(myself included) appeared to chase after becoming “saints”, rather than servants. And in order to be the saints they so believed they had to be; they had to be all consumed and sold out, by what it took … Continue reading Lost Faith
Sometimes, I find hope in the fact that, someday this will all be over. Sometimes, that is all I look forward to. And the hope that, I will never have to come back and “try” this again.
Thoughts and Emotions
You’ve gave me your thoughts, Now give me your feelings. You’ve held not back your words, questions and attempts to rummage for meanings… So don’t choke out emotions, meant to find freedom. The mind is plagued, by so many somethings. The heart suppressed, unable to breathe, really. Let go, of all those deeply held felt … Continue reading Thoughts and Emotions
Meditation and Spurts of Wisdom
You’ll never let Intuition be your guide, as long as you’re letting the collection of your little guides, guide you.
What to do?
" If I tell them, they will consider me a fool; if I am silent, I cannot escape my conscience." ~St. Francis, Before Warning The Christian Crusaders.
Moments and Intuitions
You must be in the moment, to discern what that exact moment needs. Tomorrows moment, may not be the moment one imagined today; nor is yesterdays moment here to ever relive.
Todays and Years Longings
More than anything, I just long for time alone. Stillness, silence, solitude. And for several years now, this is the very thing that constantly eludes me. I cry for her. I rage for her. I thirst, I starve, malnourished. Needed to be fed, by nothing. Empty bliss. No distractions or disruptions. No voices, nor noises. … Continue reading Todays and Years Longings
You Need Me. Sincerely, Solitude.
In solitude, we see more clearly. "We live in an extremely externalized culture," Moore says. "We are constantly pulled outside ourselves—by other people, by the media, by the demands of daily life. Nothing in our culture or in our education teaches us how to go inward, how to steady the mind and calm our attention. … Continue reading You Need Me. Sincerely, Solitude.
Feelings (Explicit) Random Rhyming/Meant for a beat.
I’m starting to think his so called feelings, not a thing; I’m just another name to an inbox king All talk, no rings All fake, no bling. And you said you was rethinking some things; had me thinking some things, Like love and dreams; But I know it’s not the same; All games. In everything … Continue reading Feelings (Explicit) Random Rhyming/Meant for a beat.
What He Said: George Carlin on Education, Reform, and our Society’s Standards.
What He Said: Thich Nhat Hanh (Noticing The Synchronicities in Everyday Life 😊).
I find it exciting, hopeful, and as the following excerpts say, like rebirth and renewal, when I come across the same themes very close together within a short amount of time. This has been happening to me for years now, and it can be very encouraging and confirming. Particularly when you are on your own … Continue reading What He Said: Thich Nhat Hanh (Noticing The Synchronicities in Everyday Life 😊).
Meditation and I
I was just meditating, and was actually as some have testified to, finding brief moments of solely awareness, that are as close to any inner liberation I’ve ever experienced. The Throne Room. At God’s “right hand”. Before Him; where one can lay their burdens. For the weight of burdens in that solace, that wide open … Continue reading Meditation and I
Instinct and Intellect
Excerpt taken from, The Tao of Pooh; by Benjamin Hoff. Reflecting on a riddle called Cottleston Pie; Pooh and the narrator dig deeper into the riddle: “Why does a chicken do what it does? You don’t know? Neither do we. Neither does anyone else. Science likes to strut around and Act Smart by putting labels … Continue reading Instinct and Intellect
What He Said: Alan Watts
“To have faith is to trust yourself to the water. When you swim you don’t grab hold of the water, because if you do you will sink and drown. Instead you relax, and float.”
Worshipers and Followers.
A point I have been trying to get across for several years now to serious church goers; is their relation to church, over people. A key verse I can’t get away from when considering this, is when Jesus tells the parable of The Good Samaritan. Notice, the kindness of the Samaritan gets pointed out by … Continue reading Worshipers and Followers.
Wild Wild West
Note: I talk in extremes to make points. I don’t necessarily think the church should be perfect or is filled with all hypocrites. I don’t think one must debase themselves and live in poverty and grief to be a follower of Christ. My objective is to show how churches do tend to overly focus and … Continue reading Wild Wild West
Spirituality, Knowledge, and Experience
There is little use, and much futilely, in gaining mental knowledge and the possession of concepts; without practice. All knowledge, the teaching and learning of spiritual things are solely to lead one to the experience of said spiritual things. It is the presence of, that counts; that ultimately frees and liberates ones soul. The presence … Continue reading Spirituality, Knowledge, and Experience
Mercy and Grace
To have other humans(asking people and not just God) you’ve offended or hurt, accept your apology and offer forgiveness and understanding; can be one of the most liberating things to experience.
Do You Build Your Life Around Your Authentic Self or our Cultures Expectations and Ideals?
For me, I don't want to live by the "rules" and expectations of a society steeped in greed, materialism, consumerism, and so forth. I want my spirit to lead me. I have to realize what I do for others, VS what I do for myself. And when it comes to a lot of things most … Continue reading Do You Build Your Life Around Your Authentic Self or our Cultures Expectations and Ideals?
Words Of Wisdom
What He Said: Ekhart Tolle
“The deepening (spiritual healing, freedom, awakening, liberation, self-discovery) happens through the challenges of life. If you could remove the challenges of life, it’s virtually impossible to remove the challenges of life; but if you could remove for a period of time the challenges of life, by living in a totally protected environment, the lack of … Continue reading What He Said: Ekhart Tolle
Jesus, Buddha and You.
“When Jesus said, “ I am the way,” He meant that to have a true relationship with God, you must practice His way. In the Acts of the Apostles, the early Christians always spoke of their faith as “the Way.” To me, “I am the way” is a better statement than “I know the way.” … Continue reading Jesus, Buddha and You.
Society and Emotions: Save the Youth?
I seen the heading of an article today that read something of childhood suicide on the rise and what we could do? It is our society. Are we willing to change? We have unconsciously or maybe sadly even consciously; pushed our children off into the realm of our own power tripping and ideals of success. … Continue reading Society and Emotions: Save the Youth?
Lessons from Taoism: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Times
It was at a university book sale where I was first introduced to the ideas of Taoism. Hidden away deep in the philosophy section, I picked up what …Lessons from Taoism: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Times
Morning Meditation: Substitutions
We’ve come to this place, where we’ve mistaken feeding our minds, for feeding our souls. The mind is of our physical nature; our spirit is not so. We have lost touch with this eternal part of ourselves. We give it no opportunity to grow. We still not ourselves; but rush to inquire. We hush not … Continue reading Morning Meditation: Substitutions
“We can quickly conjure up a hell realm of negativity in our minds that multiples the stress of the actual event, by ten times or even more. Part of the art of suffering well is learning not to magnify our pain by getting carried away in fear, anger, and despair. We build and maintain our … Continue reading Minimizing Suffering
Therapy and Crime Rates
Therapy and Stigma
One moment I’m up, one moment I’m down; It’s crazy ain’t it? I’m a mf mental patient. For my life long, I’ve been singing this sad song; and I’m always complaining of it. It’s chronic. Somebody save me. I hate it. It controls me, it pursues me, until it consumes me. Eats me alive, one … Continue reading Mental Patient
The Thousand-Yard Stare. Taking a frightening look at combat… | by Kent Stolt | History of Yesterday
Soldiers call it the thousand-yard stare — the tell-tale sign that one’s senses have become so overloaded by prolonged fear and trauma that the nervous system can’t process any more. They are no… — Read on historyofyesterday.com/the-thousand-yard-stare-b8eae90ec634
One Said N’ Done
I’m tired Of trying Of fighting Of getting back up, Thinking I’ve gotten it together; Only to plummet back under; So I will lay; Again I will lay here and wait for my heart to fail me from the tole of it all.. I sense it coming; I can’t hold any more. Not at all.
God’s Love is Perfect for You.
Had a man come into my job just a minute ago and his last words before leaving were, “God’s love is perfect for you”. 😭 Believing that and also loving myself, can be the hardest things for me. It’s nice to have those reminders from those close enough to his heart, speak his heart 🤗❤️
A Soul( or the awareness of being one).
It takes one to know one…
Here comes the pain again; the rain again.. The storm within. Tempest amidst, my soul bereft. Just pain, what gain; Comes from all this? I hate what I am; I hate what I ain’t. Black and white; no room for grays.. The weight, oh the weight…. Dark clouds, all the sounds… Driven mad, driven mad… … Continue reading Pain again
Very Well Said: Alan Watts on Religion
“Christianity, institutionalized guilt, as a virtue.” ~Alan Watts
Help me to shut my mouth; and may I have open eyes and ears to all that you are doing. ~Samantha
A Man is Measured..
Mind Games and God Trips – The Undoing of Me
What is this thing we’ve called God that we’ve idolized for so long; other than our intellect? Observe yourself for some moments, and consider is it true? Not entirely true? But, possibly….. mostly? Where does this God I have come to call mine, reside? When I ponder it? But, almost entirely in my intellect.. Look… … Continue reading Mind Games and God Trips – The Undoing of Me
Compassion and Humanity : We’re All in This Together.
“In cultivating compassion we draw from the wholeness of our experiences-our suffering, our empathy, as well as our cruelty and terror. It has to be this way. Compassion is not a relationship between the healer and the wounded. It’s a relationship between equals. Only when we know our own darkness well can we be present … Continue reading Compassion and Humanity : We’re All in This Together.
Maybe when someone is in need of something and/or is suffering, and we know it. We shouldn’t always have to ask them first, if they want help.. If we sense it..if instinctively or brazenly we have been alerted… Maybe we shouldn’t always wait for their reply.. But simply, act on it. No questions nor answers … Continue reading Pondering Love
Anxiety in the Body
Listening, not Knowing: Brene Brown
What He Said: Teddy Roosevelt
“It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; . … Continue reading What He Said: Teddy Roosevelt
What He(Thich Nhat Hanh) Said.
“We often think of peace as the absence of war, that if the powerful countries would reduce their weapon arsenals, we could have peace. But if we look deeply into the weapons, we see our own minds- our prejudices, fears, and ignorance. Even if we transport all the bombs to the moon, the roots of … Continue reading What He(Thich Nhat Hanh) Said.
Tonight: Pains the Same
I don’t know how much longer I can tolerate this shit; The pains a bitch, and everything triggers it. A lifetime of sorrow, tell me how long could you handle it? The hurt is deep; and it’s extremely intense. I’ve sought help, reached out, the best I could; and I’m over it. They said my … Continue reading Tonight: Pains the Same
What do we Want for Another?
I’ve come to notice that in most religious circles; It’s not that people wish others to be free. Free of pain, suffering, bondage, etc. It is not that people usually are really seeking another’s healing and peace; But rather, we are wanting and expecting others to think like us. To conform to our patterns and … Continue reading What do we Want for Another?
The Way of Liberation
“The sacred dimension is not something that you can know through words and ideas any more than you can learn what apple pie tastes like by eating the recipe. The modern age has forgotten that facts and information, for all their usefulness, are not the same as truth or wisdom, and certainly not the same … Continue reading The Way of Liberation
Kahlil Gibran on Love
“And think not you can direct the course of love, for love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.”
If our bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, And the Kingdom of Heaven is within us.; Why is it that we so rarely if not ever, enter in? Go in. Sit with. And Listen. Still yourself. Let go. Release it. Deep breaths, Exhale, Enter in Loves presence.
The best way to find out if one is at peace or war, at love or hate, meekness or in arrogance; Is to get still, get quite, in silence.. And look within. As The Kingdom is within, so is hell. One can easily tidy up the outside. But one cannot deny what is within. How … Continue reading Seeking
Mind Games and God Trips
What is this thing we’ve called God that we’ve idolized for so long; other than our intellect? Observe yourself for some moments, and consider is it true? Not entirely true? But, possibly….. mostly? Where does this God I have come to call mine, reside? When I ponder it? But, almost entirely in my intellect.. Look … Continue reading Mind Games and God Trips
Some Depth Before Bed 💤
I used to think that the worst thing in life was to end up all alone. It's not. The worst thing in life is ending up with people who make you feel all alone.-Robin Williams
Fear and Freedom
Don’t let the words and images scare you off🧐🤨😟! Listen to what is being said for once☺️. Not what the mind tells you; or what others have said to believe or think about particular words or images❤️🙏. Essence, spirit/soul, are beyond words and images that have been created by the minds of men, in order … Continue reading Fear and Freedom
Pablo and Jane
Let me pour out the liquor and mourn a few, rest in peace to our time; Rear view. You were it I had chosen you . Let me let go and exhale, Fast away this love spell. No thinking of you and me; Godspeed. It is the best elixir, ignoring all of my feelings, get … Continue reading Pablo and Jane
The Art of Letting Go
The anxiety is so painful.. Than I remembered the Hennessy.
“A moment of patience in a moment of anger, saves you a hundred moments of regret.” “ Money is the worst discovery of human life. But it is the most trusted material to test human nature.” “One day you’ll be just a memory for some people. Do your best to be a good one.”
“I love you when you bow in your mosque, kneel in your temple, pray in your church. For you and I are sons of one religion, and it is the spirit.” Khalil Gibran, The Prophet
Religion Comprehension Having to “know” what is right and wrong Allowed and disavowed Needing to expose Needing to be certain Truth claims One is in, another out Religion Asserting this is, and this is not. Tree Of the knowledge of good And evil Stripping one Of spirit Enthroning earthly wisdom Insisting this is it I … Continue reading Comprehensive Religion
“Let yourself be silently drawn by the strange pull of what you really love. It will not lead you astray.” ~Rumi quotes on love and life
Peace Within, Peace Without: Know Thyself First…
“Our capacity to make peace with another person and with the world depends very much on our capacity to make peace with ourselves. If we are at war with our parents, our family, our society, or our church, there is probably a war going on inside us also, so the most basic work for peace … Continue reading Peace Within, Peace Without: Know Thyself First…
Coming to an End of Self..Finally Waking to Realize the Dissatisfaction We’ve Called Living.
“It is not the pursuit of greater and greater states of happiness and bliss that leads to enlightenment(finally seeing things for what they really are), but the yearning for Reality and the rabid dissatisfaction with living anything less than a fully authentic life.” “The worlds problems are, by and large, human problems-the unavoidable consequence of … Continue reading Coming to an End of Self..Finally Waking to Realize the Dissatisfaction We’ve Called Living.
“Truth(spiritual experience) is not something that can be truly and deeply understood by having it spoon-fed to you. Such truth is like fast food, easy to access but hardly satisfying in the long run. In our modern society we expect to have everything given to us in easy-to-consume bite-size portions, preferably very quickly so that … Continue reading Seeking Spirit
Some Daily Depth
“Unfortunately, the notion of faith that emerged in the West was much more a rational assent to the truth of certain mental beliefs.... Predictably, we soon separated intellectual belief (which tends to differentiate and limit) from love and hope(which unite and thus eternalize).” “No one religion will ever encompass the depth of such faith. No … Continue reading Some Daily Depth
A Little Depth a Day: Irks the ego away ..
“I saw too the reverence that everyone must have for a sinner; instead of condoning his sin, which is in reality his utmost sorrow, one must comfort Christ who is suffering in him. And his reverence must be paid even to “those sinners” whose souls seem to be dead, because it is Christ, who is … Continue reading A Little Depth a Day: Irks the ego away ..
Random Rhyming Blame it on The Pain, Tho
Sometimes I can be so unthankful; Please God make me more grateful. But can I blame it on the pain though? Cuz the storm rages on, before I explode. They tell me I can’t blame it on the pain though; And I’m tripping, cuz they say it likes it’s easy bro. They forgot sometime ago; … Continue reading Random Rhyming Blame it on The Pain, Tho
Telling a chronically depressed or anxious person to change their attitude; is like telling a one armed person to grow their other arm back. Or a diabetic to simply stop being insulin resistant... It’s a spit in the face and very disheartening.
I don’t want to come across as dark and depressed. Pitiful and disturbed lol. But, I also don’t want to live my life hiding. Promoting a false persona. Polishing up an image I wish the world to attribute to me. I don’t want to fear others opinions. I likewise don't want to advocate for self-harm … Continue reading My Truths
Hindz: Simplicity, Patience, and Compassion
If I don't die by my own hands; it will be my heart exploding within me from so much stress. Years of stress. It’s a weight. It adds up. It’s friction. It's a lot. So God, strike me dead or help me.
2 Sides 1 Coin
Some say this is not like Jesus. I go about it so unlike He would.. My conflict and resentments; my criticism of many Christians, their buildings, institutions, and conventions. Maybe to you it is so, but I look at it different. Even the best of saints aren't walking perfect in their giftings. Show me one … Continue reading 2 Sides 1 Coin
It’s ok to need a sabbath. You must, one must, get Sabbath. Tight chest, deep breath, regress. The stress will kill you best. What’s next, what’s next, what’s next? Tight chest, deep breath, regress. The stress, the stress, the stress. Makes one consider bullets to the head. Life’s nagging...will ravage, ravage, ravage. But when will … Continue reading Sabbath
Tangents: In My Feelings Again
Tell me what it's like to survive. Picking through a bucket of change for all the nickels and dimes, because there’s no longer a quarter in sight. Single cigarettes are what I'm after, because I'm smoking again. Yes 8 years Newport free, but the stress will make one pick up old habits again... It makes … Continue reading Tangents: In My Feelings Again
The strongest men, bare their hardest truths. The weakest men hide behind pride; in fear of being true. Ashamed of self, afraid of men seeing them; they dare not tell their longings nor show proof. Lost, wanting to be found; yet not knowing to be free means bringing forth the inner you. Exposing the very … Continue reading Courage
God, You can take me when you want. I’ve tried my best. But, I’m not good at life; and I don't like it here. Your stumbling, always grumbling, tired and fatigued red headed step child, Samantha.
Vision, Seeing, Believing and Receiving.
"Man can only receive what he sees himself receiving. The children of Israel were told that they could have all the land that they could see. This is true of every man. He has only the "land" within his own mental vision. Every great work, every big accomplishment, has been brought into manifestation(reality, come to … Continue reading Vision, Seeing, Believing and Receiving.
God, The Bible, Cycles and Typologies. *Needs Revision
Lately I've been pondering the cycles found in life. Found in history, in man; as is heaven so on Earth. The micro being a small part of the macro; fractals and holons. The repetitive nature of the seasons and stages of life. Even more so, I've been very interested in how the Bible does such. … Continue reading God, The Bible, Cycles and Typologies. *Needs Revision
Grace and Humility
I must remember; that everyone has their gifts, just as they have their torments. Everyone has their light, just as also, some darkness. All have their season. In it or out. To change and wrestle. To learn and grow. What I have escaped and lived through, seen and heard; another may have done so long … Continue reading Grace and Humility
Reading The Bible and Other Works.
"Unless you learn how to read symbolically, you don't get the meaning of most Scriptures. Literallism, the way I'm afraid a lot of fundamentalists interpret the Bible, is the lowest level of meaning. The least helpful of meaning. It's all symbolic. But most of us aren't trained to read literature, much less spiritual literature." ~Richard … Continue reading Reading The Bible and Other Works.
Faith and God
"Faith itself sometimes needs to be stripped of its social and historical encrustations and returned to its first, church-less incarnation in the human heart." ~Christian Wiman
How Much Does God Include? Unity: By Father Richard Rohr.
"Most people only appreciate people who are just like them; which means, you're pretty narcissistic. You've never moved beyond the first circle of self.... Now, Bonaventure says once you pass all these tests(loving first the smallest things, the things in your inner circle; than moving outward), than you might see angels. I haven't seen any … Continue reading How Much Does God Include? Unity: By Father Richard Rohr.
God wants people free, more than He wants people to be adherent. And while most have confined themselves still to rigid ideas and systems, refusing to move in Spirit; Jesus is still pointing at those outside the walls of religious fundamentalism. Those moving and speaking as He did. Those bringing peace, freedom, love, and life … Continue reading Liberty
"Intense suffering burns up the ego in us." "Suffering drives us into surrender, total acceptance, no more complaining." ~Eckhart Tolle (paraphrased). Something all spiritual beliefs, at their core seem to be implying. Different terms are used: self=ego, death of self =ego loss, the first shall be last, burial before resurrection/new life ( new way of … Continue reading Life Goals?
"Sometiems we turn our lives over, not to a Power greater than ourselves, but to an unintentional petty dictator. Then we live in a walking dream as their psychic puppet, even when they're no longer around to pull the strings...... You know, at some point you have to free the inner hostage. No one else … Continue reading Morning Dose