Today

I finally have both kids in school for a period of time each week day!

I feel almost wrong about how excited I am!! 😂

I would have a made a mighty fine monk.

The quite, the stillness, the limits on noise and distractions are very welcomed.

I don’t know what part of me struggles with so much noise and movement going on at once?

It’s like when I’m alone I have no nerves.

And when I am around others, even my own kids at times, I feel like a ball of anxiety.

PTSD, social anxiety, BPD.. shit I don’t know 🤷‍♀️ haha.

But, I needed this.

COVID and my bout with postpartum was really traumatic for me these last several years.

It has really made me go deeper though.

Within

To notice what works and what doesn’t.

Now I just have to implement it.

Use the time to unwind, and hopefully, in that way, I am able to be more “present” as a mother, daughter, sister, and friend. 😊

I was just born to be a monk that’s all haha .

Thank you Jesus for making it through this. Wallah!