I recently had made my blog private because I have felt unworthy of my own opinions. (But said fuck it)
Disclaimer* I am not a preacher or teacher or perfect servant of Jesus or God. Nor do I claim to be. I am just being honest when I’m blogging whether it’s right or wrong; they are my thoughts. Take it or leave it. *
I have been struggling with this humanity.
My own hypocrisy,
Sometimes hidden so perfectly.
My own thoughts, that are immoral,
But seem, oh so fucking natural.
Who am I to give advice?
I fail to keep my own vision clear and my heart right.
I hate the wrestle.
At times I feel like it would be better to give in to every whim and say fuck it.
To fall into pleasure again.
To not give 2-cents about who don’t like it, and not give a shit about who’s offended.
But then it always hurts eventually.
But I find it so alive in me at times, selfish intentions.
Resentments and this conflict..
With myself, the world, God, and mans visions.
I for sure am a critic.
Of myself formost, but I see it within me..wanting to also inspect and perfect all those around me..
Even though I too have this devil inside me..hiding.
Who’s to say anymore, there’s too many answers.
I don’t have one right now, so don’t hear me out..
Don’t take me too serious.
I too am a victim of my own shit and all that the world has handed me; and I too am trying to be aware of it and swim out of it.
The struggle is real, I know that much of it.
I fight with myself more than anyone; and everyone else is just to blame for it.