God give me a kind heart, cuz this world has gave me a hard heart.
Make me what Thou art, cuz I’ve created a monster..trying to do my part.
I thought I was able..qualified and faithful..
Wanted to prove to You and the people..I was solid…no problems..
But life tends to, knock knock knock you off your rocker..if we’re honest
Now I’m again at the bottom..only way up is a God-send…
I prayed for you to make me this patient, loving being..and humble me..and I guess it goes as so…
The only way is through legit suffering…
Chipping away at all that’s unlike Thee in Me..
It is through this spiritual poverty…
I thought I was this leader..coming with a good word..well versed for all people..
I had achieved some stature in this walk with the cross.. and I had what they. were seeking after..
I swear what happened was, every little jot and jittle that I had to reprimand in the next man…
Ended up being my very portion…sowed and reaped.. ..same seed..
Anything I was “super spiritual” in when examined next to them..became seen for what it was…
Fraudulent…..self-investments
Not because I wasn’t sincere..I was this..very much so
But it was because I had left Him in the garden..took some fruit from that tree and devoured it..
Passed it along to all those I assumed needed to know…what was right and who was wrong.
And I lavished them with it…it was my gifting..and they needed to get it.
…Doctrines of men.opinion opinions opinions ..will leave you eventually here sitten…
In this seat of providence…a recompense now for consequences of one’s own self-righteousness…..
See in some way, you later become, the very one that you were convinced was in need of your love…wisdom from above
See..You learn the road by walking it….or you will learn by being knocked of your high-horse…
Paul and Damascus..ain’t no accident
Bright light..blinds eyes..you have no choice now but to look for better sight to guide…
Someone else’s hand you are to hold tight….and follow behind
You will come to this dark place..no light..if that’s what gets you to just shut-up and listen…to sit still and remember who God is..in order to show you what really really really really is….
In everyone’s best interest.
The Undoing of Me 