One thing I’ve learned about the establishment of organised religion: they give up on you, way before you give up on them.
You can reach out to them in various forms. But they give up on you, before you do them.
You keep writing..they stop responding.
You have made it known that you are in despair..
And they must fear it..they can’t handle the real pains found in life…they have no real backbone when it comes to the real demons..the one’s that actually kill, steal, and destroy.
They give you bandaids when you need resuscitated..
Methods but not means…
Words, but not weight
They are there for the strong: the easy cases, the stable..the sound.
They cater to those able to also carryy them..take a look and see who’s within..always the majority wins…the voice that is heard…
They give up on you, way before you give up on them.
And then you finally give up also, on them…and you turn to those outside to find what you thought was suppose to be within..
And you find real life! Again….Maybe that’s what Jesus was trying to show us all along…He also took people way more seriously than His Torah readings and Sabaths….
*There are a plethora of individuals found within the church system that are like Jesus to me. It is the establishment I am having trouble not resenting. It works for some, but not for the least. I have found humanitarian groups and other systems in the world, that have a better idea of what active love looks, walks, and talks like.
The establishment is not teaching to heal..restore..or die to self..but to tolerate and put up with a mess..rather than consider a soul.
The Undoing of Me 